Who Are You More Afraid Of?

Welcome to all the blog readers who are reading this blog for the first time. We you can see I have eleven of them that I alternate between, which might be confusing. This morning I had trouble with my computer locking up but apparently I don't have any viruses. This political campaign is evolving into something pretty pathetic, particularly on Mc Cain's part. Now he's so jealous and perhaps afraid of Obama that he's comparing him to a Hollywood celebrity. As to the remark about Obama not looking like the pictures of Presidents on our money, I would say the same thing of myself, were I running. Although in my case my chief fear is because I'm bald, and we don't have that many bald Presidents. I'm tired of the Bread And Circuses mentality of all campaigns. It seems that Obama was having trouble with a heckler at a Town Hall meeting yesterday and the question many were asking was "What are you going to do about Hurricane Katrina victims? This seems to be the only thing on people's minds today is who is passing out the most money. And the networks on TV want to keep us entertained with all these circus stunt reality shows, to keep our minds off the real issues that should be on our minds during this campaign. People have asked for centuries, "What is the meaning of Life"? I'm not really sure that all life is is seeing the next movie blockbuster or playing the latest computer video game or how many internet options are on the latest widget that I just bought?

As you know a fellow named Bruce Ivans committed suicide a few days ago. This is the "real culpret" behind those Anthrax mailings in the fall of 2001 in the wake of 9 - 11. Just to refresh your memory two congress people got them, Reed and Dashel, and both were instrumental in whether the Patriot Act would be passed or not. Also Tom Brokov got one, as well as a Florida magazine who published an apparently unflattering photograph of one of the President's daughters. Some people died from the anthrax and many more were made ill. For most of the intervening years a guy named Hatfield took the rap for the anthrax, but he was recently cleared of all charges, and now this guy Ivana comes to the fore. He worked at Fort Dietrich, where apparently the anthrax was produced. But ABC news was spreading the unfoundeed roomer in October of 2001 that the anthrax was produced in Iraq by Saddam Hussein because it had a certain chemical in it. This proved completely untrue. This apparent suicide of Ivana was from Tylonol - Codeine tablets and someone guessed it would take ninety of them to kill you. The question is was it suicide at all or do we have another Vince Foster case where it might have been a murder so that the full facts of this case would never see the light of day? The question is who are you more afraid of? Are you more afraid Al Qaida might launch a terrorist attack between now and November, or afraid some right wing militant would launch a terrorist attack to try and sway the election? Mc Cain knows how phobiac we are when it comes to security. If they can't win an election by rigging the votes in Ohio, they'll do it by some other means. These are the sort of questions people need to be asking Obama during his campaign. All indications are and Mc Cain is running on a platform of a third term of the Bush adminestration, and few Americans want that. Back in the days when Al Gore was still making political speeches he spoke on the subject of using Fear as a manipulation tool. Some could call people like me "conspiracy nuts" but it's the most probable scenario of what is actually happening.

Today is the anniversary of the first time I threatened to commit suicide myself on August 2nd. 1967. I planned to do it by electrocution- - sticking my finger in an electric outlet while dangeling my bare feet in the kitchen sink full of water. Of course after I was dead God would be free to come along and spout off all the grand and glorious future events in my life that I would never experiance now. Back around then my Mom was encouraging me to get into oceanography, because it was the up and coming fad then for people to be interested in. I would have been a successful oceanographer. What I'd want to ask God is "Well, at just what point did my life change for the better?" And you can look at God's face as he ponders thd question and goes back in hid mind for a suitable date. And he'd probably come up with "five minutes before you were conceived". But you know in those days I wasn't as afraid of death and "the after-life" in those days. All this cock & bull stuff about Christianity really wasn't important. I had a real life which I perceived at the time was entering a turning point for the worse. To a degree, I think people know "in their hearts" ahead of time whether their lives will "work out allright" or not. They may not have all the specific facts and figures but they have a certain mental intuition and all of those unspoken little "hints" that come up in day to day living.

- - - but don't treat on Dearest Marolyn

Joe Mc Donald revived the "Marolyn Monroe was murdered" scenario. There is a guy who has been an M M fan for forty-five years and this topic has always fascenated him. And he has seen other books on the conspiracy angle come and go and he thought he'd research "the truth". We know Marolyn Monroe was a "borderline personality". So was Laura, so I have some personal experiance in this area of dealing with what some might call "unstable personalities". He says that Robert Kennedy and Peter Lawford visited Marolyn the afternoon of August 4th. 1962 and when they left that Marolyn was "hysterical". We all would like to know what they talked about that god Marolyn so upset. The author claims that Marolyn was told she'd get help with her faltering movie carrier if she would fake her own suicide somehow and get sympathy from the press, and then they'd step in. Excuse me but I see a Jesus Christ scenario in this. Suppose Jesus died on the cross thinking he'd become the deliveror of Isrial only to wind up in Hell and explaining his whole mindset to the Devil. "- - but I was told- - ". They say Marolyn was "highly suggestable". To me it's inconceivable that J Edger Hoover would let Bobby Kennedy get away with murder. Though in the Mary Jo Kopeckne case we've seen how the Kennedies don't value women very highly. Apparently there was a lot of "pillow talk" between the Kennedies and Marolyn and she knew that our government was planning or had tried to assasenate Fidel Castro. All these notes were in a little red diary book that went missing. Obviously if it were true than Sirhan Sirhan would only be "leveling Bobby Kennedy's karma" by killing him. If you're certain people it's best not to "threaten to go public with what you know". I think a good axiom for us all to follow is- - "Don't threaten it; just do it".