A Dangerous Event Horizon

testing one two three- - - Everything is a little scresey today. First my password doesn't work. After being stopped and frisked at the Indian embassy when I tried to enter the country from Bangle Desh then I discover I've lost my Outlook Express default. Then I see that Google has added a Patent option that wasn't there before. I tried to get DSL the other day and the Internet cut me off just as I was about to click that I accepted the long, encyclopediac agreement. Now I'm thinking of taking my business elsewhere, like say to DSL extreme. And now on to the Blog.

We once said that the origens of the Holy Catholic Church are like a black hole. No light gets out and you can't see in. If you travel twords the star your "event horizon" increases but still you aren't seeing everything. In your endeavor to see more you increase speed. But should you exceed the speed of light, you may not know it but now you'll be unable to get back. (This is working off hundred year old Einstinian physics and minus the advent of the warp drive or hyperspace) You didn't think it wasz possible to travel faster than the speed of light. If you were in ordenary space you wouldn't be but when you're in a Black Hole space distorts and stretches out. If you have moved past that critical retrurn event threshhold there is no way to "get back" and you're forever in the twilight zone. This is how a lot of Christians are to begin with. What price are you prepared to pay for learning the real "secrets" of Christianity, and were you so stupid as to think some "force" doesn't guard them? The Apostle Paul is about the only man in the Bible who even thinks he "might" have traveled to heaven. Even he is not sure. But he was given a "thorn in the flesh" which most experts agree took the form of some horrible tropical disease that would come upon him suddenly and cause his body to be convulsed with pain. Perhaps due to some poison which stays in his system over time. There are just "certain places I'd rather not go" if it means paying too high a price to learn its secrets.

But there are other dangerous event horisons. People say there's such a thing as the rapture where all the "good people" are removed. Let's for literary sake assume this is plausable. In this parior game there is some evil 666 government whose goal in this world is to get you to Volentarily "take the mark of the Beast". If you do of course you are damned to Eternal Torment with no remedy. You never know who is going to end up like that. There was a movie about Jesus that depictred Judas as the victio of a relentless government hounding him like white on rice with one ploy or another- - one threat or another- - if he didn't cooperate with them and Betray our Lord. You don't even know who is going to go up in the rapture. According to John Calvin that choice is exclusively up to God. There is no "ticket you can buy" to somehow "guarentee" your trip to "Dinner and a Tournament" in Heaven for seven years. You know- it's like "In the oppinion of the Chair- - the Ayes have it". God is "the chair" and if "in his oppinion" you're not good or holy or humble enough to go, then you will be LEFT BEHIND. Capish? It's all a crap game the outcome of which has been absolutely determined and trying to predict it is like trying to predict numbers on a roulette wheel. Should you be successful "too often" they'll only accuse you of cheating so what's the use? There's no way you can tilt the table or do something to "increase your odds" of being among the Chosen Elect. You either are or you aren't. Sorry to disappoint all of you who lost.

There are other "event horizons" in the form of dangerous people. If you have seen the movie "All About Eve" you know that Eve tried to get next to Margo, alias Bette Davis and "get to know all about her". But one day, like a virus, she just up and took over Bette Davis' identity doing her parts on Broadway. So the question is - - at one point is it "being nice to somebody" and when does it become the necessity of swatting a misquito before it turns deadly. Of course at Calvary Anaheim, there are pastors who are scared spitless of just this. There are people out there it's feared "might do their job better than they can". The pastors even have a name for them- - "Absolems", after one of David's sons. Consiter it a complement if a pastor turns paranoid on you. It says more about the Pastor's insecurety than it does about you.

But there are other more dangerous people. Some are merely annoying. I told you about a guy around here who is always wanting to buy and sell things all day long. He buys something then turns around and tries to sell it. It about drives you nuts. The question is when does such behavior cease to be merely "annoying" and become dangerous? In soap land there is a guy named Patrick. Patrick is a nice guy to lean on. A real hand holder for diswrought women not appreciated by their husbands. But Patrick can also turn ugly if he doesn't get his way. He becomes more and more poserssive of you. These people, just like Eve start off all apologetic and not wanting to offend you in the least- - and then one day they are like Black Widdows sucking you dry and giving you their deadly venum. There is another character named E J Wells. People think they know E J and can outsmart him, but he makes fools out of them all outsmarting them every time. Trying to outsmart Satan with scripture or prayer and fasting or whatever is folly. Your very attempt to "challenge" the Devil only affords another way for him to humiliate you and rob you of your faith. The same is true for E J Wells on Days of our Lives. Sometimes it's best not to make an enemy of a powerful person if he has done nothing to offend you personally. You might just discover he's not after you anyhow but somebody else. Think about that. Cops usually aren't after YOU unless you do things to act suspicious.

Certainly the year 2007 is an "event horison". We don't know what lies over the misty hill that is Newyear's Eve. I'll tell you this. If I hear one more time that Ford pardoned Nixon "for the good of the country" I'm going to gag. I guess by the same logic we should deny the haulocost ever happened- - out of a spirit of "Not wanting to rock the boat" or something. No. You don't call White Black, and Black White. Don't throw away your moral compus in an effort to "get along". Now we have a man as President and another as Vice President whom some of us don't trust. But we've "outgtrown" Watergate, out of a "spirit of healing and unity". Congress doesn't do that sort of thing any more. If you want a rug sale go to Washington because congress likes to sweep a lot of things under it. People want us to "get used to things" like Presidents who routinely abuse power. Compared to what George Bush is doing now, what Richard Nixon did was so paltry in comparrison it barely registers on the radar screen. Kruschev once said "When you live next to a cow pasture you complain about the smell, but you get used to it. Our mission is to get America to "get used to it". OK have your irradiated, genetically engineered dinner!
The following material was typed earlier today...

Jerald Rudolph Ford died last night at age 93 as the nation’s oldest President in his rancho mirage home of unknown causes. All of the reports had said he was on the mend. He was born in Omaha, Nebraska and was orig. named Leslie but then he moved to Grand Rappids and he took the name of the new husband of his mother. Ford served on the Warren commission. As you know it’s argued that people on this commission were specifically picked for their ability to cover up the truth. Ford was picked as minority house speaker in 1965. In 1970 or so when Justice William O Douglas was under scrutiny and there was a drive to impeach him, Jerald Ford said, “Impeachment consists of whatever the congress says it is”. Of course Ford is our only unelected President ascending to the office on August 9^th. 1974 when Nixon resigned. The buzz is that a deal was hammered out between Nixon and Alexander Hiag in which Nixon would resign if Ford would soon pardon him, which is what Ford did, and his popularity numbers plummeted overnight. Ford in his speech said, “If what I did proves to be wrong a thousand angels saying I did the right thing won’t help me”. Ford pardoned Nixon for all offences he committed or “may have committed”, meaning that Nixon could have a pro-active pardon for offences we never heard about. Of course Ford presided over a period where our national pride was at its nadir. We had twin evils of inflation and the worst to date recession since the 1030’s, plus there was the energy crisis and the WIN buttons. That stood for “Whip Inflation Now”. Apparently Ford initially said he wouldn’t run again but naturally he did, beating out Reagan for the nomination. There was talk of a classic “Deal” with Reagan where Ford would have new expanded duties as Vice President in almost a co presidency. If Reagan had only gone for that deal we may never heard of George Bush, except as an ex CIA chief. I voted for Ford against Carter choosing in my Born Again spirit of forgiveness to ignore the pardon. It was my belief that as bad as Ford was, he still had a better grip on reality than Jimmy Carter. Ford lived to be 93 years of age beating out Reagan by a few months as the nation’s oldest living President. Of course his wife Betty was revolutionary in making the public aware of the twin evils of Breast Cancer and Alcaholism. Ford was initially way behind in the polls but gained steadily on Jimmy Carter as the campaign progressed.

Thom Hartman has gone a little soft in down-playing the Pardon. This was really a bad historic precedent for future Presidents and sends exactly the wrong message. In light of the violations of Ronald Reagan and now George W Bush, the offences of Nixon look paltry in comparison. It now appears that due to the precedent that Ford set, Bush, if impeached will most certainly be pardoned and nobody will think anything of it. It’s silly to say that “Nixon was punished enough” because Nixon was NOT removed from office. Technically Nixon wasn’t even impeached (as Clinton WAS). Impeachment charges were merely voted out of committee and it wasn’t by a huge margin, either. Nixon could, as President Clinton did, choose to remain in office and try to beat the charges. I don’t think he would have been successful but he’s a bit of a coward for not trying.

Last night you had this nerd seven year old kid on “House”, the program for quacks and those who love them. They do all these weirded out surgical experiments with people including destroying alien heart cells because of a “mishap” that occurred when the kid was cloned- - excuse me, invetro furtelized. He’s one of these people who has DNA from two different people, which I’ve heard of happening before. But the “alien” DNA is what makes the kid think he’s being abducted by space aliens and so the doctor has to purge the offending cells from his brain. I want to mention something I brought up on the blogs that may have confused family members. I said that as a very young kid I “had contact” with F S and also F H. F S was an entity I really didn’t talk a lot about over the years. But after the “heart attack” (?) of Richi Vallenz on July 8^th. 1975, F H took over more of a position of leadership of CMK members. As you know from snail mail this group origionally came from Vancouver, and are known in my snail mail writings as the Vancouver Romulans, to distinguish from others such as the Torranto Romulans and the Detroit Romulans. They moved to Southern California in 1951. About my last contact with any CMK member was with F H in October 1989. As you know this CMK group was paranoid ever since I moved to my apartment in mid 1988 and they never explained why. Again F H as I “knew him” was not connected in any way with “all that weird stuff” in Vancouver or wherever. As you know this city drew my attention because in 1965, 1969 and 1973 parents acted weird when we were in or around the city of Vancouver. They ran from the city like they were running from a fire.

"Hey- - That's So 2006!"

Greetings to all you blogees out there. I hope you all had a nice Christmas. I'm at least not quite as broke as I was before the holidays. We must be grateful. If you're wondering about my oppinion of George Bush from the last posting let me clarify something. I believe it's not only George Bush who is "on trial" and "up for judgement" in the next few weeks, but it's God Himself who is on trial, because "God" and George Bush are so attatched to the hip as least as far as the right wing is concerned. When Bush's throat tickles, God breaks out in a spasum of cauaghing. I am on trial myself. After all I voted for George Bush twice. I did so the last time because I felt that God was with him. This is a file that does a lot of digging around in the dirt. You never know what relics will turn up.

In terms of "The Paraqauat Files" I know you people. When you're telling a story and the people are interested in the topic, what they want most is a sequel. In this sequel we introduce a new conspiricy item we didn't mention before because I felt it was just a little too "X Files" to say flat out. So now we leave it up to you readers to draw a conclusion. Here's another clue for you all. One scene we left out was mid September 1990 when I happened to meet Joe's parents. I looked at them and they said, "Oh, we're the In-Laws". That remark may be significant, or it may mean absolutely nothing. It's kind of like when Oswald told the police, "I'm with the FBI". Was he blowing smoke out his ass or did he mean something by it?

This is the day after Christmas. “The Jesus Chronicles” are out. Apparently it’s another by Tim Le Hay and it’s the Gospel of John dressed up with more dialog. Christians believe is they say the same thing over and over it will come true.

James Brown died Christmas morning at age 73 of heart failure. I believe we have four songs by James Brown in our rock collections on line. His career of course spanned fifty years and he had planned appearances when he died. James Brown has gotten a lot of due recognition in the media, and even by the President.

Fidel Castro does not have cancer. A little of my prediction was vindicated. He’s just recovering from a lot of surgery but he’s definitely on the mend.

Saddam Hussein has been ruled against by an appellate court. Apparently the Iraqis have a law that states that anyone denied an appeal by a high court has to have their sentence carried out within the next month. So Hussein should be swinging from a rope before the end of January. “Bon Voyage!”

Governor Swartzenegger broke his leg while skiing in Idaho yesterday. They say he’ll undergo surgery under general anesthesia. We hope he mends.

There were two earthquakes in Tiwhan today. One was 7.2 and the other was 6.4 in the rictor scale. They feared the quakes would trigger a tidal wave, but I guess we aren’t going to start some new after Christmas tradition and the tidal wave alert was called off. Still two earthquakes of that size can cause a lot of damage.

Glen has not yet been by with coffee. I am thinking of heading out to the bakery if it’s open today. Some people take the day after Christmas off. Bill has not been here in three days. Dianne is back. I rarely have sugar frosted flakes but I had them this morning. We had a blueberry muffin, one sausage, and one bacon.

Gary sold me six Pall Malls for a dollar. I figured the price was right. I should have heard Oscar in the halls by now. Last night I had this dream about a woman who complained she was being mistreated by some government agency that I was representing and I was trying somehow to help her. In one scene she was at the beach and her group had about five one year old babies who were being treated to their first beach outing. I later learned she was a member of some group where after you were married you got raptured to heaven or some place for a year. This was a group that actually had ongoing rapture experiences- - where people physically disappear into another dimension.

Last night I did finish the fruit cake. I watched the news and then Jeopardy and then Wheel, I guess and then “Pirates of the Carebean”. I didn’t think it was such a great movie but it had some colorful dated dialog in it. This morning I put on those slipper socks from Dr. Messina. He wants us to feel like we’re back in the hospital.

Now we’ve heard it. The first use of the expression “That is so 2006” in a commercial- - meaning that it’s passé and no longer relevant.

It’s gotta be a bummer for department stores this time of year with all the people returning gifts. Apparently some people after a while will put you on a Black List if you are known for returning too many gifts. Get someone else to.

Apparently in the movie “Good shepherd” there is an implication that George Herbert Walker Bush ratted out our own CIA telling the Soviets we planned to invade and they told Castro, all in a plot to make President Kennedy look bad.

There are just six big corporations that determine what shows we see on television now. There used to be a majority of independent producers who determined what we watched but now that has shrunk to 24%. Of course even back in “Network” there was talk about bigger corporations gobbling up smaller corporations and the process would repeat itself. Apparently Robert Kennedy made some key speech about corruption in high places and he said “Only the President can remedy this situation” and a week later he was assasenated. Of course [name withheld] at the gathering on Sunday was the one who said that his biggest fears about Berock Obama is that he will be assasenated by somebody. I know he poses a severe “challenge” (a Nurse Rachett term) to the Republicans.

Now there are roomers that we have already decided to attack Iran. If we see a big build-up of troops in the region of the Gulf in January you know it’s coming, because due to astrological or astronomic realities or some sort, the fall is a bad time to attack. The attack has to be done early in the year, like in March or something. “Bush doesn’t feel like he needs to go back to Congress to get approval to attack Iran”.

If all of OPEC switched to the Euro from the dollar it would ruin our economy.

The Paraquat Chronicles

A few days later Kathy informed me my place would be being sprayed for cockroaches. I hadn't complained of roaches, and indeed it was not a pro- blem. She said something about it being "spawning season". In point of fact I had been "sprayed" three times in the previous two years, not count- ing this time, which would make four. It's like she was deliberately try- ing to be annoying. A month or so later in early August there was yet another "follow-up" spraying, where they just hit the floor boards, or something. I was coming home from Taco Bell and they were in here stink- ing up the place. Kathy said she had shouted up to me the previous night "They'll be spraying tomorrow" and I had shouted back "OK". Perhaps- -

Clint had shouted "OK" from his window playing a dirty trick. Or perhaps she made the whole thing up, trying to do a Twilight Zone number on me.

That Friday morning, July 10th. or so, I woke having had the most disturbing dream. It's like I suddenly "connected" two disperate things, and was "never the same". I suddenly "perceived" myself as being in a whole lot more danger than I had been in. Analogus to imigry Albert Einstein once suggested about "viewing marble players from a high window, and wondering what "mysterious fource" kept bending the marbles off course- only to note that the ground was not flat". Well, this dream had the stunning "enlightenment" of suddenly "connecting" the hilly ground with the distorted marble trajectories and realizing "Oh, I see it now". It was a dream and an interperation that "stayed" with me. Here's the dream:

- - - It was sometime in the early to mid sixties and it was a Sunday afternoon around four, and it was warm, like summer time. I had been out playing or something and came in the house and wandered around, and some- how became aware of the fact that I was invisable. And I was hearing people say things they wouldn't otherwise. Mom and Dad were in a pitched argument about something Mom had done a long time ago. Dad was ranting and raving about "You are thirty-eight now, and you were twenty-eight when it happened" and a tone of "How COULD you - do such a thing- - make such a mistake, which was now coming back to haunt us". I remember wandering all around the house but the conversation kind of made its way into the bedroom. I remember light streaming in from the bathroom. After the dream was over I had more of a sense of dread than I had had during the dream - like I had whitnessed something of significance. And also vaguely aware that this may be a recurring dream. Like I'd had it before but had some-

how driven the implications of it far from my mind. That Saturday I re- call two things. Watching "Kind Hearts and Coronets" a movie on KCET about Royal Sucession, and planned murders. While drinking Burbon from a bottle. And I recall thoughts swimming around in my mind, and getting a nose bleed. "I must be wrong; blood oviously isn't thicker than water".

A few days later Ross Perot ripped the guts out of his supporters by anouncing that "Due to the fact that the Democratic Party had revital- ized the Party" there was "No need for his candidocy". This announcement was made at the worst conceivable time, on the first day of the Democratic Convention. It appeared, for all the world that the Democratic carisma was "just so great" it was "irrestible" and hence Ross Perot was now vir- tually endourcing William Jefferson Clinton. This I perceived as a be- trayal. As if Ross agreed on one principle with the Democratic Platform. Like the song says "You know something is happening, but you don't know

what it is- - - - Do you, Mister Jones".

Opening night for the Barcelona Olympics was a trip. They did this "epic" War and mythology thing, that reminded me of a bad rendition of Don Giovani, or something. Some Epic legond.

Relations with Clint had gotten much worse. There would be insults and whispering to his friends. He and Kathy would appear to be sharing some inside joke. These "incidents" involving Nicholas would increase. I shant go into them. One time Nicholas and I were in the pool and a bunch of other teenagers were generating "waves". Nicholas had his floaties on but still got panicked, and begin crying for his mama. I said I would help him, but Nick, completely out of charactor, backed away from me- - and when Kathy came said to her "they all were trying to drown me" and I pleaded that Nick "had just panicked". She appeared to believe me. I don't think Clint was in the pool at this time. Another time Nick asked me to specificly "throw him into the water- - like Mommy does". When I was chided for "Can't you throw me any farther?" so I put more muscle into it next time and when he landed in the water funny, Nick cries "[name withheld] tried to hurt me". Meanwhile those old "Ron Addams" roomers about me giving free Blow jobs to people, Clint said he "knew" I had done that, and said it in a way that led me to believe he had "heard" something, and not just grabbing at straws. Because the more i said he was full of it, the more iron clad and insistent he got. I wondered what the fuck was going on". His insistent cries "But I wouldn't tell anybody" were meaningless. There was a lot of "stuff" like throwing chewing gum at windows, and get- ting Nicholas to throw gum at every window in the courtyard, including mine. And I said "Do you really need to involve Nicholas in this?"

But where I blew my top was one Sunday late afternoon when the pool was crouded and the water nice and warmed up. I was just lounging in the water when a kid said "Isn't that your towell in the water?" and I lost it. One trick of Clint's was to get Nicholas to throw my towell in the water and when I would yell at Nicholas, he would go to Kathy and say "[name withheld] yelled at me". This day I exploded at Clint in front of every- body. All the little "code phraises" he and his friends used, and the little mind games, the accusations- - everything. I screamed that he oughta show a little respect for his elders". I don't know what the others thought. Or just how far, and how repeatedly I had been "pushed".

The weather this period was almost unrelenting in its humid torrid- ness. It was as though the very air itself would wrap itself around your throat and strangle you. The humidity was like Florida. The air was so heavy as you walked down the street- - it was almost as if at some moment the atnosphere would congiel into some gelatanus substance and you be frozen in mid step. Then they decided to drain the pool. They put up that yellow Police tape like they do with crimes. I happened to fanticise what it would be like if the water went off and I was like Daffy Duck just dying for one drop of water. I remember being on a bus in kind of a blatzed state (alcahol) and in those days the airconditioning came up from the windows and just hanging over it, and fancying myself under chilled water in kind of a blissed out state. On Saturday they were refilling the pool and [Pete Richards] called me and offered me a chance to swim in his pool "later" and as we were talking on the phone I became aware that Chris and Ferris had begun allowing people back in the pool. "Never mind" I told [Pete]. And I much preferred virgin tap water to the warmed over chlorinated soup that awaited me at [Pete’s]. It was later that night that Joe and Kathy returned prematurely, one might add, from a Camping trip. Nicholas wanted to go in the pool because everybody else was enjoying themself. But Kathy said "No, there's nothing in that pool but water". - - The next morning I do not believe I went to Church, unlike this morning when "Sonny boy" spoke. - - (Fredo said it was his turn but the family thought him incompetent) Any how the subject was "camping". Not really. But the Preacher said that

this life is like living in a tent, and you may want to do it for a while but soon it gets old. He told this story of a kid being told what a homeymoon was like and the kid asked "Can I take my toys along" and the Dad said "No". "Then I ain't going on one" the kid said. And Heaven was compared to moving into a permanent building AND to a honeymoon, and he said "God knows what you like". Enter the Big Bopper. Yeah, George Burnes in that movie last night said "The nurse has got to have the right ass- - THIS is too small- - - (gesture) and THIS is too big, you got it?" To which Richard Benjimin says "There's a lot of girls in New York like that". I must say- - - sometimes you are surprised. Because Joe and Kathy had taken Clint along camping with them and from what they said about him, it was not an enjoyable experiance at all. And when I caught up with Clint at some later date (he was elsewhere now) he, too said it was not an enjoyable experiance. It seems they drove each other nuts. I happened to think- - "What if it turns out that Heaven is actually the Camping trip".

There was stuff involving Kathy's "mother" or adopted mother. Clint had said "Kathy knows both her adopted mother and her biological mother". Well, I knew her adopted mother. Whether her real mother put in an app- earence shall remain a mystory. I remember one day they had an elaborate Birthday celebration on August l8th. It appeared to be for Kathy. But one time I happened to remark about the step sister, something about her racial makeup (she was appearently adopted, too) and the mother carps at me "There IS no "step" in my house. I believe in equality". She seemed angry at me personally, and I dont even know what it was I said.

My nearves were shot by mid August. In a sense it's a wonder why I didn't succumb to the temptation to take a few tokes. Because this place from l988 to l992 wreeked of marijuana smoke coming out of all sorts of peoples' apartments. I guess I feared the idea of "loosing control" even if everyone else around here chose to partake of the weed, legal or not. Parhaps I was just a fool for not toking up. I could have used "something" because - - - not to overuse a tired espression- - - I was becomming wound tighter than a fifty cent watch. Capish? It got to where I think I was hearing "things" like the electrical system being sabotaged, and blowing up or something. And crime horror stories like we are lucky we aren't all done for. And stuff about how their superiors are "conspiring against them". Like Joe and Kathy are perfect but nobody else knows anything.

Glass Houses

You've heard the addage "People who live in glass houses shouldn't throw stones". Well one talk show host was casting aspursions at George Bush last week. A lot of people have been saying George Bush needs an "intervention" like a drug intervention they talk about on Dr. Phill, as though Bush were some kind of a mental patient. Mark Hartman called President Bush "delusional" last week. I think saying the President has lost contact with reality is like going around cannisters of propane with a blow torch. You see if Bush is crazy then we're all crazy for electing him. It would suppose that Robert Gates is crazy and congress is crazy for approving him and that we're all crazy for voting for him last time. Personally I don't know why we jumped from the frying pan into the fire by electing an Sec. of Defence involved in Iran-Contra. But that's not Bush's fault. That's a representation of the oppinion of the congressmen we elected. I think the best thing we can do now is think positive thoughts about our future. Things could still work out OK. As the song goes, "You've got time to rectify all the things that you should". We don't know what final decision Bush is going to make about the war. He's given himself a little more time to think about it and Christians can pray that the Lord will be speaking to him over the holidays so he'll know exactly what to do. He just could be vindicated. The fact is there are a lot of people in Iraq who support Bush's policies. I've heard the people who are happy with Bush outnumber the people who are unhappy with Bush. Much of the country is already "pasified". They're saying stuff like fighting in Iraq is good training background for Moslem terrorists who then fan out into Europe and recruit more people there. The fact is our service men believe in the war. A lot of them seem to think we're winning or at least see light at the end of the tunnel. I'm just saying don't speek too soon for the wheel's still spinning and we don't know where it will land. The right wingers may have more going for them than we think they do.

The idea of a Christian therapist is sort of an oxy moronism. It's like "deafening silence" or "jumbo shrimp" for for that matter a "Christian Jew". You know someone calling themselves a Christian therapist like Thom Hartman, who is a Christian and a therapist, already has two strikes against them in my book. It's like that judge on the Beverly Hillbillies named vinigar Joe Johnson who hated bankers and city fellows because his wife ran off with a banker from St. Luis. "So just as long as your client isn't a banker or a city fellow you'll be OK". Of course the guy was both. I don't know if I've actually met a Christian therapist - at least one that I've had a rational conversation with. Of course "Mr. El Paso" is one. Stanley Abott is another. During my therapy with them he let it slip that he had sympathies twords fundamantalist Christianity - I don't remember how exactly it came up. Both these two and Eileen all have one thing in comon. They broke a confidence I had with them and made public things I intended to be kept private. In at least two of the cases they broke the law in doing so and all three the revelations caused me personal harm. I don't like the way therapists think. You know I don't like the attitude twords anthropologists had tword that tribe of humans that walked on all fours. They were treated as some sort of side show freaks. Anthropologists were musing about the contents of their brains. The whole thing was a little too "Planet of the Apes" for me. When we stop looking at people as humans createdx in the Image of God (as Moslems view mankind, by the way) and start looking at people as laboritory freaks I believe we've stepped over a line that we should not step over.

Some people may ask me "Don't you think some of your remarks on the last posting were a little delusional?" I think we need to define the word delusional. Captain Queeg was delusional. He imagined threats that wern't there and governed his life as though they were true. The only "delusion" you could peg me with in that blog is if you knew for a FACT that none of those things happened and that my young pre-school and toddlerhood was as ordenary as could be. But the fact is every time I try to THINK BACK past a certain point I come up with a lot of this gobble-dy-gook. For some reason REAL MEMORIES prior to age four & a half aren't there. It's kind of like looking at Jesus' life. I have often said there is sketchy evidence Jesus went places like to Glastenburry or to India. Edger Cayce says Pursia. There is scant evidence Jesus was married. There is NO EVIDENCE that Jesus lived a perfectly normal, uneventful life. It is noted that ALL of the gospells of Jesus speak of him as being totally divine. However- - his HUMAN qualities had to evolve into being with time. Luigi Cascioli isn't far wrong saying some of the key Christian writings seem to deny Jesus was human at all. Justin Martyr has the basic tennants of Christianity laid out about Jesus' death being the New Covenent in his blood, and that there is a higher spiritual law Jesus and us should live by and that giving of the Hebrew law was kind of a reluctant afterthought on God's part. All this is sure. Whether Jesus of Nazareth actually lived or not at all- - well, that's up for speculation. Bottom line is I'm tempted to say I'll give up any not well founded Beliefs about anything you want, if someone will come foreward and say this whole Christianity thing is a fraud.

Dr. Phill said something about decisions teenagers make. He said that their brains just aren't developed enough and they don't see the consequences of their actions. This is why they do things on a dare. This is why they join up with the Military and go fight in Iraq to prove they're some sort of super hero. They see these Army promos that indicate War is just one big life Vidio Game. Also people who "Give their lives to Christ" don't often know what they are doing. How can you make a life decision based on a twenty minute or half hour speech? Last night on "Justice" they had this murder case where this defence lawyer had a half a day to wrap up his entire case and submit it to a jury who hopefully would render a verdict before five PM when it was time to go Home for the Christmas Holidays. To complicate matters a fresh witness was sprung on them at the last minute. The client was accused of murdering a taxi driver in a dark alley. He says he didn't do it. To complicate matters further the guy was in the FBI witness protection program where a lot of secrets, including an arrest record were "off limits" and could not be asked. This is kind of how it is with an Evangelists speech. You have twenty minutes to weigh out the rest of your life- - and the thing is inherently not a fair contest.

One of our postings in Psychic Ballance is The John Dean Testimony. We kind of rushed the end a bit and I'd like to privide a little "Let it all hang out" information from an early June 1996 file, for public scruteny, even if it makes me look bad. None of the names are changed but if you're offended well Ain't that just too bad! These events occurred sixteen and a half years ago so let's roll footage now.

, in l990 it was a bright, sunny day. The following day

was the primary election. I remember just after voting this day how "down"

and "out of it" I felt. This idea "once you get everything done you feel

great" does not pan out in real life. You have "nothing left to do".. so

you're here another year. Big fat hairy deal! I remember just having this

strangely "detatched" feeling this day. It passed as the days went by, but

I have not forgotten how it felt. It was strange. At Alpha Beta that prev-

ious Saturday when I went to photocopy- I saw the LIFE magizine with that

wierd picture of Elvis on it saying that he comitted Suicide. To me that

shows a type of bravery. He's willing to face God with all the "stuff" he

has done. It says something about his "Faith", if you know what I mean- -

that psychic sense about eternity of nothing to fear but "there is something

better out there". From that moment on I was in a strange mood. Again, the

weather these first days of June l990 were hot, dry, and sunny. You could

not ask for better. And there were these giant green bee-things. Later

on Nicholas was amused I was afraid of them. I suppose maybe if you knew

they didn't sting. But they sure look mennacing. And they show up in June.

There are a few other things about l990. In the summertime. A lot

of wierd, some might say, pivital events took place. Had I chosen to do

myself in at this time- - - the funny thing is- actually most of the time

I was in a good mood and things were OK. Except when I felt like killing

myself. This was the month Emily almost got me to agree to be baptized in

her pool. I was teetering on saying "Yes". But if you know Emily there have

been times I have decided I was going to "do" something, and she keeps talk-

ing, and I change my mind and decide not to. Later on this month sometime-

was when Debby broke up with her one-time boyfriend. The thing is, when she

broke up with him- relations with ME got worse. There were a few notible

ZAC albums of the period "Not Here Not Now" in late May; "Something Cold" in

mid June, and "Real People" in mid July. I may get around to talking about

these and many other matters later. But I'm not ready for that now. I just

had the goal of starting the file tonight. And I have done that. By the

way that opening quote comes from "Beatles at the BBC" which aired on Mem-

orial Day. One of the last Bryan Burne oldies nights on KRTH. And also one

of the earlyest references to making reference to over imbibing. As I re-

call, on a tape. The funny thing being I haven't had what I had that night

Burbin, in so long I cant remember. I can't remember being really satis-

fyingly "drunk", wasted, "blotto" for a long long time now.

OK this is the next day but many things flew around in my mind last

evening. I even went out for more beer it was so hot and the supplies I had

seemed not quite adequate to the task of "sedating" me. I comented to the

lady at Lucky 7 how warm the night was, and I in shorts, too.

Back in l990 things by today's standards seemed almost idilic. There

was this teenager in apt. 5 or 7 and he lived in with his girlfriend, and

lots of others. He was a corgial guy. Never tried to play mind gamve on

me or anything. She was fashionably slutty, as I recall. Nick rode around

in the "Nick mobile" as I referred to it. a yellow and orange plastic thing

he got inside of and peddled. And he was only two, but bright. I remember

him trying to say "ice cream truck". One time a bunch of then denighed one

was around and it came closser and Nick exclaims louder "Ice Cream Truck!".

I remember the day Kathy deemed to leave me along with a not quite two year

old Nicholas. Figured I must have earned some trust. We were both in the

jacuzzi. On the fourth of July the three of them from apt. #27 where they
lived then, went to some elevator ride thing at Disneyland. It was a week
or so later Friday the 13th. and I was over at Ken's apartment with that
family with Nicholas. Some activity was planned but I had my anally reten-
tive agenda and did not stay long. The next day it had to be it seemed to
me I was improving my relation with James, if not Sherry, his mother. Sh

had a little girl, too, named Torrie, short for Victoria, I later learned.
James had certain facial features & complexion that reminded me of his moth-
er. He had a friend named Tracy. When I first met Tracy, who was intro-
duced to me, I was a little wierded out. You see, tracy had long hair and
kind of a rounded face and was just a little pudgy and even starting to get

teats, if I'm not mistaken and this combined by the way James dominated him
made me think Tracy was a girl going topless in the pool.
Terry (if He is a woman that beard groath is a great desguize) mean-

while had plans to go to a bar-b-Q at Linda Hammer's appartment on July 14th.
and I had intended to go but the closser the date got the more "put off" I
felt and by the actual date I felt so "intelligent" for NOT going. But

stayed home and listened to a Jimmy Page special on the radio and went out

to the Jacuzzi with these two Mexicans and a baby, as I recall. As you may

know Linda had reacently married Dave and not informed me. But when I fin-

ally met "Dave" he spouted scriptures at me maniacly, like some fifteen year
time warp. (see "Rachett" for what happened) One other event was on July

12th. which was a Thursday, and astrologically a "key" day I had anticipated.

There were these four girls, vaguely Mexican, never saw them before this day

and was never to see them again. One of them resembled Debby Lies, and i

was instantly attracted to her, and she seemed attracted to me. She said to

me "Buy me some cigarettes and I'll be your friend for life". But I didn't.

Howard Stern has oft made the remark "I used to buy girls cigarettes, and

then never get sex". Tword the end of this month I baught "Biograph" and I

mused about Dillinger and impending death, and "the same time of year..."

I wanted to talk a little more about Nicholas, and was going to include a file I did in early June 1996 discussing the period of mid 1990. But I won't do it on the first posting. I was fiddeling around and here's some word play BEATLES can be re-arranged to spell BET SALE. Nicholas, minus the letters in BEATLES forms the words IN HOC. Which is latin for "In this" or perhaps "By this (sign)". The letters where Nicholas and Beatles overlap you have the letters S L A. You may remember Patty Hurst. You young ones look it up. In terms of the words in Beatles not in NICHOLAS you come up with B E E T. Two things. There is a song lyric "I'll plant you now and dig you later, cause you're a find sweet potater". However with a little Wheel action you get E BET, or electronic gambling. It was in the year 2005 that John Lennon indicated he was interested in the life of Nicholas. You know- - if I get a psychic impression of something it's more valid than Christianity because it's ME, who is getting the impression. I can vouch for ME. I can't neccarily vouch for others. But one time while I was listening to a John and Yoco tape with Sean, their son I got a strange vibe. Remember those two "German"esque names I told you about last time? Do you remember The Three Faces of Eve? Do you know what the punch line of that movie was. There was EVE White and EVE Black but NEITHER turned out to be the real HER in the end! What emerged was a new personality named Jane. I'd like to suggest a parellel in my life. These two "entities" met. Their paths crossed- - I believe in Vancouver, which isn't a made-up city even if you heard it on the Simpsons. Both "souls" were brought there by a comon force we at the federation call Alcion. Otherwise known as Pliades Alpha to star gazers.

Alcion may not be morally that great, but there are worse entities to worry about And that is in an admittedly fictional account of The Asshole from El Paso in July of 1997 we have "El Paso" taking his orders from a fictionalized Geoni Versachi. We portray him as sort of a Stephano Di Mira charactor, who tormented the people of Days of our Lives for decades. We aren't saying any more about "Geoni" now. Only to sqay that he is not entirely fictional and may pose a threat to my life. I also know that he has a drug problem- - and not being his friend I'm going to Say Nothing.

Hard Wired for Prejudice

In this month's issue of AARP magazine was a novel article in it. It said that our brains are dezigned to send out "vibes" or something to interlock with vibes of other people's brains. Of course they say that negative emotions release poisons into the system and positive emotions release endorphans to make you feel better. But it appears to go beyond that. It's almost as if other people's thoughts have a magnetic field affect on our own. I remarked off line already that this would mean that Christians pick up on my negative thoughts about the religion without my having to say a word and that Holy Spirit protection device kicks in and they either avoid me or lash back (as in the case of the Asshole from El Paso) Well today Thom Hartman was saying the same thing. He said we as a human species was "hard wired for prejudice". They say that it's in our nature "naturally" to be giving and perform acts of kindness tword others because doing so make us feel more worthy and increases our self esteem. But there's also a protectiveness that kicks in like a mother protecting her nest or her cubs even at the risk of her own life attacking entities much bigger than herself. Of course it's also known that a father's drive is to perpetuate his seed and so will often kill the cubs who were sired by a rival suitor so that he can spread more of his seed. But this drive tword protectiveness also enters into the reality of group think and mass sociatal prejudice. You often hear how a croud will "react as one man" to attack a certain outsider, like a suspected witch. This tendancy to protect our own innocent ones from "the outsider" is a deep, biologically based one. Once I was at a Bible Study in March of 1972 where in talking about this scripture in Romans 8 about creation yearning to be free, we talked about plants react when you water them and how if you go to crack one egg, all the other eggs in the carton also react. I've heard other things. They say that parts of a cell often work together on construction projects to move particles of nutrient or something else from one part of the cell to the other. Vines in time lapse photography will send out feelers moving around searching for something to attatch themselves to. And of course we know of of the arctic tern who is a bird who while there is still plenty of food where he is will signal and all of the birds will fly south to Argentina or some place, but if a bird stays behind it will be too fat to fly. Learning behavior in animals definitely seems "hard wired into the system". I guess it gives you a new appreciation of God. We only hear about stuff when things go wrong but I suppose it's time we thought about all the times things go right and we pay it no notice.

Of course this "Us verses them" phenominum can have dangerous consequences. It's kind of the danger of incramentalism. Like boiling a frog by gradually raising the heat of the pot the frog is in. The Nazi party practiced incramentalisum. First it's just a small stepping in a civil right or you have to "report" stuff you didn't have to report before. But then groups begin being persecuted but you think, "Well, the government must be acting on secret information we know nothing about and if we knew how serious the problem was we'd understand". Of course if all of this sounds fermiliar it's because the Bush Adminestration is using all of these rationalizations. Obviously if the Jewish death camps were set up in 1933 instead of 1941 there would be howels of protest to have Adolph Hitler recalled. But it's a gradual numbing process. Of course Christianity is the same way. If October 1987 had occurred in October 1976 instead, I'd have jumped ship right away. If those eleven years inbetween had just disappeared and never happened I'd have never acclamated myself to the bizzare ways of thinking a Christian engages in. The clarian call was issued this morning. We have two full years of George Bush left to go and we don't know what is in store. We are hoping Bush can work with congress as he said in this morning's news conferance. We hope some energy bill gets passed. We hope for an increase in the minimum wage, and for a fair immigration bill. Perhaps this accomplishments will occur. But what other things will occur? We're already looking at thirty to forty thousand troops sent to Iraq "for a few months". People say "we're increasing troops in order to finish the job". We're "doubling down" just like a gambler does. As Captain Piccard says, "In for a penny, in for a pound". With the new congress Bush should be hanging off the ropes like Rocky in 'Rocky X" if there is one. More to the point by now you'd think Bush would be face down on the mat and bleeding from the ears ready to accept any and all democratic terms. But Nancy Palosi seems to be adopting a roll over and play dead policy. I'm not seeing any Republicans cringing in fear at the investigations that this democratic congress might launch.

Thom Hartford pointed out all of the times since April 19th. 1995 that there have been caucasion terrorist threats from the right wing. There seemed to be a massive haul of weapons and plans every few weeks involving the plot to explode this or that government building. If President Clinton had wanted to he could have declared a state of emergency hysteria and caused panic in the streets. But Clinton was too responsible and restrained to do this. Racial profiling doesn't always make sense. Thom mentioned old ladies being involved in explosives at Moscow airports. Often contraband is stuffed into child's toys such as a teddy bear. The Moslem Empire extends from Moraco to Indonesia over a multitude of races including Pakistan, Iran, and the Philipines. You can't blame everything on the Arabs. World Net Daily and Ken Galliger are both trying to incite some sort of anti Islamic hysteria. They are using that word "Islamo-Fascisum" again. These people are saying that there is a conspiracy by the left wing media to lie about the true hostile intent of Islam. Now today I read that the President of Iran expects the "Immam Mahdi to appear at the end of time along with Jesus Christ, who will announce that he's now a Moslem". And the Immam Mahdi will rule for seven years. This will no doubt set off panic alarms among fundamentalist Christians. [time for a topic change]

Once upon a time there was a guy named David Stanley. In mid November of 1989 his guardian angels knew he was going to die this day so an angel stopped him as he walked along the road and gave him an itinarary of the coming events in the world. Stanley reads, "Let's see - - Senator Cranston elected to another term. In late 1990 Noriega invades Costa Rica and George Bush sends in troops to push him out. Late in 1991 Maruo Cuomo declairs for President and wins in the 1992 election. His increased tax policies throw the economy into a tail spin and drives up the national deficet to a record 550 Billion. No. Nothing particularly unexpected here". When he gets to the intersection of Lincoln and Holder a high speed car making a left turm runs him down like a bowling pin and he's dead on arrival. But what they don't know is that David Stanley thought he was still alive and kept on in consciousness. Who is to say such a thing isn't possible. We think what we experiance is real but in reality any one of us could be the target of some giant illusion hoax like "Moriarity" was in that Star Trek episode where his whole destiny could be held in the palm of your hand. You have to admit some unforseen things have happened since Nobember 1989. But what nobody knew was that David was on his way to the computer lab at Cypress to record more on the adventures of "Dorian". This was David's day off because of Vetterans day. Otherwise he'd be working. Dorian was the 3rd. child of Lucy [I don't want to get sued so I'm deleting this next part] He was born right around the turn of the decade in 1950. But what they don't know is this child was sold to a Satanic Cult at the age of two or so. At the time Lucy and girls lived in a Medeteranian style house and some beatnick style cultists with long hair and beards would meet at her house, and one of them would play the accerana. The guy who ran the computer lab at Cypress would later delete this contraversial entry. At some point the boy was taken to Lake Athabaska, Canada. It was quiet there, but there were a lot of mosquitos. To come full circle I'd like to cycle back to picking up psychic vibes and shorten this us. Some of the "vibes" I received I suspected were from Nicholas, who was a sixteen month old boy in November 1989. I think I was picking up vibes from him. Let me give you a few more and you can read the April 30th. update of Rocca Rolla for a few more. When I was a boy I had conversations with imaginary people. (big surprise) Two of them were "brothers". One was taller with blondish hair and the other was shorter and darker and had curly hair. Sometimes I would "be" the one brother and sometimes I'd "be" the other. Both had similar rather German sounding names. One time I was with this "brother" and we were in a house where we both listened to some colored boy (a "mellow yellow") play his guitar because he was tallented. He was perhaps eleven. One of the boys ended up dead. He drowned at "Crenchaw Beach". This is an area that may actually exist by an area where Crenchaw was closed off. I dreamed about seeing the yellow ribbin and the street being "closed off" in November of 1988. In December 1987 I had another dream about a scene involving a strange car chase occurring "sometime in early June when there was an almost full moon rising in the east". You just take it all and piece it together. Nicholas code name with the Federation is "Ice Cream Phoenix". You see, If I really died in that intersection in November 1989 than everything since then is just my own imagination and not real. You may think what you know is real but you could be having the same illusion I'm having or you may not exist. Or perhaps if you're reading this you may think HAL is writing this. I was going to talk a bit about HAL but we'll save it. There's so much I didn't get to.

Let the Jackass Speak

Well it seems Time Magazine has decided on their “Man of the Year”. It’s a mirror with a frame. The man of the year is all of us. Leo Le Port says this is only appropriate since we’re all tired of the President of Iran’s bellicose statements. This past year has seen the rise of user generated material from Blogs to U-Tube, which I don’t use because I still have dial up. There’s also the Wickipedia and even a user generated news site, I forget the name. LINUX is user generated because the language was left free to modify by we users. I wish they’d do that with religion. Have a user generated religion.

In the last post we talked about possible candidates for the Antichrist. Of course there are a lot of depraved people in the history of the world. There are Caligula, Nero and Dometian, and the King of Assyria. There are Atilla the Hun, Ivan the Terrible and Dracula the Impailer. There’s Mao, Stalin, Hitler, and Po Pot and Edi Amin. There’s one guy I’m leaving out because the Federation tells me that I served in his Army in a previous life, but he was perhaps Thee greatest military leader in the history of the world and named in a Dylan song on “The Basement Tapes” that the Byrds cover.

CHRISTMAS TIME IS HERE AGAIN

CHRISTMAS TIME IS HERE AGAIN

CHRISTMAS TIME IS HERE AGAIN

CHRISTMAS TIME IS HERE AGAIN

AIN’T BEEN AROUND SINCE YOU KNOW WHEN

CHRISTMAS TIME IS HERE AGAIN

Those six lines could form a hexagram out of the I Ching if you wanted to interperet it that way. Let’s see. It would either be fire under the heavens or else water in the earth, depending on your black – white orientation. Actually it’s that Beatles song from their 1967 Christmas record that’s now finally been included in its entirety on their latest album compilation. I don’t plan on being here next week so I won’t be catching all the usual Beatles Christmas stuff. You know, I just don’t think there has been very much Christmas spirit this year – not that I’ve seen. Not like usual. But then again I haven’t gotten out much. I think we need more of the Christmas spirit. If Christmas were made to magically disappear you’d have a void this time of year with a lot less shopping.

According to Leo Le Port, as much time in man hours went into developing Vista over the last five years as went into the Great Pyramid of Giza. More “movies” are being made now and Leo says by their sheer number, there should be more good ones.

I caught about three calls from the Jesus Christ show today. Just about every call reveals some major flaw in his theology. Jesus was being grilled on whether his crusifiction was just a “party trick”. After all he’s God and it’s a speck in eternity so what’s the deal. There is no way Jesus could suffer as much as a mortal man because mortal man is plagued with uncertainty and doubt about the future. Minus this it isn’t at all the same experience. But shedding his divinity and becoming wholly man isn’t something Jesus wanted to do. Jesus said “It’s not the extent to which I suffered. Mel Gibson’s movie is full of all the abuse I suffered in that sense. The reason why my suffering was so hanous is because being totally innocent and sinless myself, I shouldn’t have been Touched”. You know, like that marine in “A few good men” should not have been “touched”. If Jesus is going to say that being sinless gives you a pass from suffering this only strengthens the Federation’s case why Christianity is corrupt because of all the innocent people who suffer, as Stu Sutcliffe pointed out this morning. But the thing is like we say- - if you’re a mortal God will allow you to sin. If you’re an immortal God insists on perfection. Since Jesus was an immortal the shoe was on the other foot. If Jesus had sinned he would have to be consigned to Hell, along with “The devil and his angels”, for whom Hell was created. Being an immortal it’s impossible for him to either give his life or have someone else take it. (Selah) Jesus was crucified for saying he was the Messiah, which Jesus knew if he couldn’t deliver the goods the law said he was to be stoned as a false prophet. Are sin and death abolished and is Israel ruling the world? I didn’t think so. He’s guilty as charged. Case closed.

Jesus also took a call highlighting his peculiar attitude twords forgiveness. Jesus likes to bifurcate words like Walter Martin does with “literalist” and “letterist”. He inserts division in word meanings where there is none. To “forgive” is to “reconcile”. This is what the Bible teaches us. Jesus states that you can “forgive” without being “reconciled”. Jesus “forgave” our sins at the cross but we aren’t “reconciled” until- - you know - - we are pre elected. So you can hate someone’s guts like the Asshole from El Paso and what I did- - riding him from my life and concerns- - would seem to suffice as far as Jesus is concerned- - and I am in no way obligated to “reconcile” with him.

Jesus’ next call revealed what a jackass some people are. In this case perhaps Jesus should pick up a Time Magazine. By the way I’m told if you’re going to get high speed internet don’t use Time-Warner cable. I’ve heard it’s a nightmare and you’ll long for the days of dial-up with gremlins in your computer rubbing two stones together to get it to work. At least you get through. Jesus had a called who asked if Jesus was aware of the four great forces of the Universe. Jesus seemed a little slow on the uptake saying “well there all sorts of forces. There’s more than four”. The guy named them as scientists know then. There is the Strong Force. This one holds the nuclear particles, the protons and newtrons together inside the nucleus of the atom. Then there is the weak force, which is responsible for half life radioactive decay. Then there is electro-magnititusm, and then there is gravity, which is the only macro force. Jesus was asked to define gravity, which is a pretty fair question. Instead of doing so, Jesus asked if the man has been smoking marijuana this morning. He seemed a little ebuliant. Gene Scott once said that he didn’t like “drunks” in any sense, either those drunk on wine, or those spaced out people who are high on the holy spirit. Gene finds both annoying. I do too. I find people who are full of the Spirit a little “full of it” for me. However this caller denied that he’d been partaking of any substance. And if he were what would be the difference? The Bible says even a Jackass should be listened to if he asks a valid question. Baalem’s ass tried to warn his master of a problem with his going to curse a group of people and the ass said “Am I not thine ass? Haven’t I always served you well. And now you won’t listen to my words”. But then Jesus made another mistake and answered the question- - wrongly. He said “gravity is a mutual attractive force of matter”. This is the understanding of gravity I had in the third grade but it’s not scientifically accurate. There is in fact no “attraction force” at all. Einstein used the analogy of people watching kids play marbles from a high building window through binoculars. The marbles were observed not to follow a straight course on the ground while being cast. Obviously some “mysterious force” was altering their paths. There was no “mysterious force”. The ground is uneven. Just as space is uneven. Gravity comes through bends in the space-time continuoum. Einstein then goes on th making elaborate elevator analogies to prove his point. The experiment of Galileo at the leaning tower of Piza proves his point. If gravity were strictly an attractive force- heavier objects would fall more quickly. Instead the heavier objects fall at exactly the same rate as the lighter objects. Einstein points out in his elevator analogies this is what happens in a “gravitational field”, which is not the same thing as a mutually attractive force. All the elevator has to do is accelerate and decelerate to create the exact same effect as that which we call gravity. I don’t think Jesus knew any of this. I don’t think he knows about sub-atomic particles such as quirks at all- - or the elaborate mathematical formulas and categories used to describe them in terms that are as mysterious as something out of the Kabala. The thing is “time-space” is all the same thing and so the same gravity that bends space, bends time. There are times when we just have to take the things scientists tell us on Faith, and the understanding will come later.

There are three different types of supernatural experience. First there is what we at the Orion Federation call the “terriesteral realm”. People who see ghosts and appiritions are actually seeing “ghosts” in the sense of things which used to be but aren’t there now. People deposit their “life energy” and this “energy” just hovers over a particular area such that we in the Federation say “This area is ruled by Romulans” and this other area of O C over here is ruled by Reigellians. Those in the psychic realm see the energy there in these areas. This is the terriestrial. The tellestial realm is the psychic realm. This is where events are not only mysteriously connected by distance, and often by time, they are in a psychic sense The Same Event. A “portal” opens up contiousness in order to perceive this. We have talked about this before. Time is no object. These portals breach the “time perception bubble” that is our common illusion-experience here in this life”. This “time-awareness consciousness bubble could be likened to growth in a tree. The growth moves out with each passing year, and yet the whole tree is seen as alive. There is that guy who predicted in a Novel the sinking of the Titanic. His ship was called the Titan, and it had virtually the same dimensions as the Titanic, and it went down in the same manner by an ice berg. The guy had plugged into the telestial dimension. In our snail mail to the media we would often go into detales describing pictures on record album covers that turned out to be prophetic. This is Mark Campbell’s area. Finally there is the celestial level of awareness. We touched on this when we said the whole Universe and everything past and future could be perceived at once. The whole Universe could be like a paperweight on someone’s desk. Only the “desk” and anything outside the “paper weight” would transcend Time and Space. To transcend not only means to “go beyond” but to “surpass the perameters of”, or in other words going “Off the chart” entirely.

Jesus took another call on someone asking whether people could be homosexual because “men made them that way” or “for the kingdom of heaven’s sake” and what do you know, this is one question he answered correctly. The Bible talks about asexuality as an “alternative” to normal sexuality, but not Homosexuality.

I'l like to wish all the readers a merry Christmas. I don't imagine I'll be writing another blog post before Christmas. I'd like to talk about my number five candidate for Antichrist. Rush Limbaugh is number five. What put him in the top five was his attitude in the whole Michal J Fox thing. That was really below the belt. His attitude twords those who work for World Peace is very disconcerting, and his statements on ecology over the years have been apalling. I hate to have a "harmless lovable fuzz-ball" in fifth place but unlike President Bush, Rush won't be out of office in two years and he will still be dangerous, perhaps more so then than he is now.

Of course the unnamed Asshole from El Paso is in the number one position. I'd like to say just a little more about him. In early 1992 I tried extensively to get in touch with him to discuss a letter I had written him at the end of 1991. I found all of his henchmen at the church to be very evasive and give me the run around. This man had already cast aspirsions on my mental stability and trashed my whole family and my upbringing. He had already made so many below the belt statements that a normal person should have called it quite there. But I didn't On a day in mis March right after I had talked in vain to Social Securety about whether I qualified for receiving a monthly check for $750.00 a month, I decided to call him. What I was dreading was an audit they would have to do on my finances. Today our friendly pastor refused to answer any questions posted in my letter. When asked about the resurrection of Jesus he began laughing and said "Does it even matter?". He called me a religious ignoramus. At one point after I was saying only good things could come from Christianity even if it wern't all true he said "That's a bunch of crap". He told me I needed to take a "vacation from religion" and again said I needed therapy. The last ten minutes of the conversation was basically a monolog. To give him his due after two phone calls of almost wall to wall insults in July 1991 and this time in March 1992 I think he said, "But we're still friends, aren't we?" But relations between myself and the pastor would deteriorate further over the coming three years.

The Four Horsemen

Preliminary Extranious Remarks:
I was either going to add to this blog or "Psychic Ballance". After today's entry some might accuse me of being psychicly imballanced. I'm picking up vibes from you readers of "Marcus in Exile" about Willow the prostitute and deciding to burn down the house where Sean lived in revenge for his dumping her. Some say this is the plot of "Norweegen Wood" but I say it isn't. Some may wonder whether I've pesonally ever been burned by a woman like that. Has any woman destroyed my property or screwed me royal in court or spread viscious roomers about me causing me to lose my job and my reputation like I actually had a tail the doctors didn't know how to remove. Actually I've never been burned by a female like that. Actually, I don't dump females, they dump me. (I know what you're thinking. I use reverse psychology on them to convince them it was really their idea but actually I wanted to dump them all along) It's just this simple: I like Willow on Days of our Lives. She seems like a wholesome and nurturing girl. She doesn't deserve to be treated like that. Sean Brady is a flake. We've known that for years. That he would fancy himself a role model for any child is a nightmarish prospect. I also disagree with his blowing off E J Wells the way he did. It would be like Elvis blowing off Red West "because he is a bully". You better watch who you step on on the way up because you may meet them again on your way down and need their help. I'd much prefer E J as a friend rather than as a potential enemy. I don't think today we show enough gratitude in our daily life. Loyalty is a good thing, as scripture says "Cast your bread on the waters and in seven days it will come back to you". Knowing how the Salem PD screws up it could be into the next decade before EJ is ever brought to justice. As for making that threat against EJ I say "Never point a gun as someone if you don't intend to shoot and never make a threat against someone greater than you you're not in a position to back up". Sean and Chelsea are both such imature Mama's boys and girls who are smothered by their parents it makes me sick.

We should all say a prayer for Senator Tim Johnston. The Centaurians, who are controling the right wings these days, are no doubt behind senator Johnston's brain problems. You know, I've heard of so many people with knowledge of the Kennedy assasenation dying of mysterious circumstances like cancer and such. You know that Mark fellow in The Omen. He died of some "congenical" brain thing too. You never can be too sure how they can desguise drugs these days. What about all those Russian dissidents who have been poisoned? Polonium won't kill you in small ammounts. People consume it all the time. I thought I even saw a Vitamin add saying they had polonium in it. The people at FOX news are salavating over the prospect of Tim Johnson having to resign. They've forgotten about Strom Thurmond. He spent the last few years of his senate carreer in a hospital room thinking he was at Calvin Coolege's inogural ball. (never mind) There may be fifteen democrats in the house who better check on their health, too. As you know I predicted something like this would happen only in reverse. I feared that Dick Chaney would be chairing the Senate and control might hinge on some post November election. Randy Rhodes tells us that Senator Johnson is doing fine and recovering well from his brain surgery. Let's keep our fingers crossed and our face to the wind.

I recommend you listen to Randy Rhodes' first hour of broadcast today. She talked a lot about how the Saudis are controling the foreign policies from the git go. Now they are trying to blackmail us into staying in Iraq so that the Sunis in Iraq don't have their rights violated. As if the Saudis cared anything about Rights in their own country. Apparently HW Bush decided to launch Gulf War I because of some island that is off the shore of Kueit and Iraq that Iraq thought they had won as the spoils of their war with Iran. A war where we supported Iraq by giving them weapons of mass destruction such as Seran gas. But this little island was rich in oil and Bush Sr.'s buddies in Saudi Arabia couldn't stand to have their oil profits syphened off by Saddam Hussein and so Bush turned against Hussein. I think we need a democratis house and senate both for the filing of impeachment charges. We could shove it under the rug but if we are patriotic in a right sence we should air all this shit that's been shoved under the rug and find out why we really went to war. I don't mind telling you I myself was deceived. Apparently Bush lied when he said Saddam was blocking inspecters from doing their job. Apparently there was already evidence Hussein had no weapons of mass destruction even before the war started. Of course we all know about the outing of CIA agent Valerie Wilson as part of a political vendetta. But if Randy Rhodes is right there's a whole set of economic reasons we went to war with Hussein involving oil and the Saudis we knew nothing about. Apparently Saudi Arabia has profitted imensely, economically, from the War. Bob Woodward or someone is going to have to write Iraq IV because there is so much stuff still happening we don't know about.

Tom Hartman says that Franklin Roosevelt ran as a moderate in 1932 but that he sensed a liberal tide in the American People so moved to the left to meet their needs. He also says that no fringe liberal could have gotten themselves elected four times. Hartman believes that it's the government's responsability to protect the people from such dangerous things as hydrogenated fats. I disagree strenuously on this issue. I'm against "The Nanny State" as I have oft spoken about. But many people live lives with a good paying job brought about by Unions and benefit from other perks brought about by liberals, and after they get home from work they call in on a talk show and rave what self made men they were. Clarance Thomas benefited from affirmitive action but rules against it. Many people like Larry Elder, who I may get to sometime, have talked about "Market fources" taking care of things like selling rotten meat or allowing smoking or low wages. These conservatives are kidding themselves. If they had their way things would never change. If conservatives had their way there would be no "middle class". As was pointed out the Renasance was brought about because there was a new "middle class" brought about by the Black Death killing off workers and as such driving up the wage base creating a thrifty middle class. Franklin Roosevelt nurtured the idea of a Middle Class, and that's why we heard so much about it in the fifties. But foreward progress does not occur by accident. Even the Age of Enlightenment came about because the average man now had new wealth from looting the New World and therefore had the time to think and philosophise. Larry Elder talks about market fources regulating things like trans fats in foods. I would tend to agree with him on this one issue but I'm also kidding myself that forward progress such as livable wages and safe working conditions occurs by accident. It was pointed out that even Benjamine Franklin issued a regulation that every house had to have a fire bucket ready in case of fire, because fire was a condition that would not just affect your house but the whole neighborhood. Safty in toys at Christmas time is another of these issues where the threat of government intervention keeps corporations on their toes to be sure and put out a safe product. So much for my "introductory remarks".

As you know four is a key word in certain evangelical circles. Bob Schuller has often used fours in his rhyming word methodology such as "trace your fears" then "erase your fears". Stuff like that. There is the four stroke engine, and four chambers to the human heart, and of course there's the final four. In the Bible there is something in the Book of Neamiah called "The Four horns of Power". These "horns" all had evil intent. The ark of the covenent was covered in four different colors, symbolizing the gospells. In Revelation we have the Four Horsemen of the Apocralipse. And so I would like to introduce the four candidates for the Antichrist, whether you like that term or would prefer another. Here we go- - - .

The first candidate for Antichrist coming in fourth place is Larry Elder. What stands out about him is that he is a betrayer of his race, much as Jesus Christ was a betrayer of his race. Even Moses of the Bible suffered from a little ingratitude in so many of the hauty, lofty remarks he made about Egypt. Egypt had given him everything he had in terms of education and marshal arts training. In like manner the Jewish society had treated Jesus Christ well in terms of education and open minded thinking, and he turns around and repuliates them. Larry Elder listens to the right music. I'll give him that. But he also says the solution to the illegal imigration problem if to eliminate all government services for us Americans to bring us all down to their level. He's never met a racial police beating he didn't like. He believes the minimum wage should be cut to three dollars an hour. One time he even argued that Davie Crocket, of all people as congressman was too Liberal, because he voted for desaster relief for farmers. He's against Bush standing up to the drug companies and is also against seniors in this country getting drugs from Canada. He seems to resent the idea that Blacks have advanced at all and every time he talks about it he gets this tenseness in his voice, as with clinched teeth. People like Larry don't like the idea of LA having their first Black fire chief. After all he can't be qualified. As you people may know there was a hazing incident where a Black recruit ended up eating dog food as part of a fraternity style prank. I have a natural bias against fraternity pranks. I think the fire dept. should be a place of dignity and professionalism. Larry Elder is against "victocrats" and he like all republicans want to dramatically curtail any citizen's right to sue in the courts. Let's move on- - -.

Coming in at third place is Gene Scott. I've already written extensively about him and I think it's elsewhere in this Blog. "The Soap Opera of Life". He's the one with the Pornographic Priestess, as his widdowed wife, who now runs his "church", and I used the term advisedly. I refer to Gene in my own writings as "Howard Stern with pictures". He never met a gross obscenity he didn't like. If anyone calls his show and suggests that the Bible has moral principles in it, they will be hung up on. His pride and arrogance would be dangerous if he wern't already dead. Were he a few years younger I fear he might have been the next Jim Jones leading a cult.

Coming in in second place is Jesus Christ of KFI. This guy believes in making provision for the flesh when it comes to having paid up life insurance, and placing no faith in a healing, even when you See It Happening Before Your Eyes. He is against any and all signs or communacations from God and seems to deny any move of or role for the Holy Spirit. He believes in being hard harded to the down and out. He's fanatically for gay sex to the extent if your church doesn't condone it he'll cricitize you. But at the same time he's against normal boy girl hetrosexual sex. He believes apparently that only Satan has free will to spread evil, and it would be wrong for anyone to interfere with Satan spreading that evil over the earth. He as much as believes Christs Atonement as described in the New Testament is unnecessary because he says we all have the Choice we can make to live perfect lives. But he also says "living a perfect life is no picnic". There is so much more I could say about him. His continuing existance on the radio is to be frank the best thing Satan has going today. Whoever ends up being the antichrist, Jesus Christ may well be his false prophet with an apparent charisma with people keeping him on the air.

Number one for Antichrist is a man whom I refer to as "The Asshole from El Paso". He's a man who grew up in Houston in the fifties. He moved to Minisota and then to Hollywood in pursuit of an acting carrerr. He later moved to northern california where I hear he got kicked out of a church. He moved to seal beach where he took up family therapy in a secular matter. Lastly he moved to my church where people in the know says he was "the true choice of the Holy Spirit". He was hand picked by the denomination especially for our church. (Boy they sure had it in for us) I don't have forever to talk about him. I think I've seen him in a soft porn movie I saw in 1993 on a (VHS) VCR tape. He's mean. He's viscious. He's spiteful. He holds a grudge. He listens to false roomers. He makes himself the center of attention in any Sermon and writes self obcessed articles in the newspaper. The first time I met him was December 9th. 1990. The night before this I was recording John Lennon songs off the radio. For some reason this night I drank a lot of Black Velvet and had a splitting headache the next morning. "Somebody" was trying to get me not to go to church that day to hear him. He has compared St. Peter to Saddam Hussein. He has stated falsely that there are no palm trees near Jerusalem and that Jericho is a few minutes walking distance from Jerusalem. He says all those sick people at the Porch of Solomon in John 5 probably had AIDS and didn't deserve to be healed. He has preached extensively from Revelation. He loathes homosexuals and at the same time says "Now don't get me wrong - some of my best friends are homosexuals". He said every gay was molested as a child and that all the Roman Emperors were gay. He says Babylonian perversion and cult practices are pervading American society today. He said Jesus only got to be Messiah because he had a good parental upbringing and proper training and wasn't tainted by being around "any of the wrong people".

Well, I'm pretty much done. I wanted to say a lot more but I'll save it for the book. I don't know if he ever lived in El Paso. I got that title from a Dylan song that apparently Bob Dylan likes to sing in concerts. What's that line about "some went on to become lawyers and things and some of us ended up in Sing Sing prison, and some of us may be here to meet you at your crossroads" Well, having the Asshole from El Paso meet you at your crossroads is a fate I wouldn't wish on anybody.