Give Me Some Kind of Sign

Those of you looking for signs this weekend can look tword the heavens where you will see the annual Percied metior showers the next couple of nights. I would like to welcome all the KFI weekend talk show jocks to this posting as they get ready for broadcast. Perhaps you find something inspirational to use, and you will see a lot of postings you haven't seen before. I'd like to do a "heads up" by telling you just like "Passions" we're moving to our next blog. The next posting will be in "The Ten Commandments", which will be at a future date. This is the twenty-second posting in this blog. The number twenty-two is significant in that there are twenty two chapters in the book of Revelation and there are twenty two letters of the Hebrew alphabet. There are also twenty-two cards in the major arcana of a traditional tarot deck of cards. There are 78 cards in all counting the minor arcana with its traditional suits of Wands, Swords, Cups, and Penticles. The four face cards (rather than three) are the King, Queen, Jack, and Page. If you are wondering about that astrological warning to "be careful what you talk about" that danger period begins on Monday and so this is about the last day I am safe.

Some of you may have mused on our 10-10-10 rapture date. That means right at midnight in Grenwich mean time according to the sun, which makes it about 12:45 AM on a Sunday morning. But perhaps you're thinking, "Will there be any signs or warnings before that date and it's too late for whatever?" The answer is that there is another witchy date that has made itself known to me. It's also on a crescent or BOSC moon and it comes a day or so after Rosh Hashana on September 21st. 2009. So mark your callendar. But just as the number 42 in binary or 101010 was significant because I came up with that date 42 months prior, so too we need to look for another number, which is 10101010. You say that "Come Together" only talked about three "ones". Well, as you know the Federation teaches that Jim Morrison was alive and in the flesh through the first half of the 1980's and the majority of the teaching in this file is his teaching. One of the doctrines is "If you see four items, one of them is a secret". Like the letters B O S C. There were after all four Beatles on the Abbey Road cover and not three, but the identity of one of the Beatles was a secret, and not necessarily Paul. In case you want the math if you add 128 to 42 you come up with 170. Since the 42 was months from an event the 170 has to be a unit of months also. But from what event? There is one major one that comes to mind to people of the psychedelic generation and that is the death of Jerry Garsia in early August of 1995. This changed everything. It was the long awaited official death of the psychedelic generation's culture. You no longer heard "Dead Head" music on the radio and you no longer could hear Live Dead every sunday night. If you count 170 months from his death the 9-21-09 date falls in the 170th. month. What you are curious about is "Where do you get four number tens". Twice in the past two months or so I've had two completely different dreams in which December 12th. was a holliday. In the first dream there was some star in the winter sky that got something like a hundred times brighter on December 12th. and the next few days and it was some big celebration. Now, on the Julian callendar the beginning of the tenth month is in fact December 12th. or so. If you take the beginning of the tenth month and go ten months and ten days and you're in the tenth year of the decade, which 2009 is, you will wind up on or about Sept. 21st. 2009, which I think is on a Monday. What I don't know is whether the zip-code of 92109 means anything or who has it. At any rate something witchy is likely to happen as a "clue' to those looking for it on this date.

I would now like to do the Tarot deck as tought by Jim Morrison, which is reconstructed from my memory. I don't have any written material before me; that's all at my parents' house, assuming they haven't thrown it away. But I urge you to look at the Tarot deck in a Google search and the traditional meanings and oppositions and reinforcements of all the cards. They say that in order to break the rules, you have to know then first. As a Christian I regarded Tarot cards as evil, and yet it seems to be good French Catholics who made use of them. All the names are in French. The Devil is seen as an evil card and not good, with a lot of bad traits. After I run down the list and capsulized significance, I'll do further comentary.

1. Strength - - - - -The Eagles

Biting Down (in the I Ching)

2. The Moon - - - - -David Bowie

"The dark side of the moon"

3. The Emperess- - - - -Queen

The Crystal Pallace of Heaven

4.Blondie- - - - -The Lovers

"Love's True Bluish Light"

5. The Hanged Man- - - - -Alice Cooper

The Pentigram

6. The Pope- - - - -The Rolling Stones

The green fields of Paradise

7. Justice- - - - -Bob Dylan

"The golden throne room"

8. Death- - - - -Judas Priest

The Red Tunnel of After Death Riddles

9. The Charriot- - - - -Blue Cheer

Psychic Travel via Radio Waves

10 The World- - - - -Cheap Trick

"You'll Do Anything for money"

11 Temperance- - - - -"The Tubes"

out of control momentum

12 The Emperor- - - - -Blue Oyster Cult

Cosmic Government of the Orion Federation

13 The High Priestess- - - - -Ted Neugent

Ruling in Hell

14 The Star- - - - -Procol Herem

"The bright light of your star confronts me"

15 Judgement- - - - -AC DC

The Fifteen Steps of the Temple

16 Wheel of Fortune- - - - -Electric Light Orchestra

"Somebody got lucky, but it was an accident"

17 The Magition- - - - -Grateful Dead

Evolution and adaptation

18 The Fool- - - - -Elvis Costello

spontanious combustion

19 The Hermet- - - - -Jethro Tull

tracing out the origen of man

20 The Sun- - - - -Robin Trower

Assylum and Escape

21 The Tower- - - - -Bruce Springsteen or Bob Seeger

The birth process of Zachery from conception

22 The Devil- - - - -Pink Floyd

"Tear Down the Wall"

Further commentary. The Eagle is associated with streingth as he devours his pray. The traditional card is the woman closing the jaws of the lion. Zachery was both conceived and born when the moon was in a new or dark phase. As one time realm 3 was the "Celestial" or highest heaven. Love in bluish light was seen as a slightly inferior emotion. When I was teleported by UFO's to the planet Ray-oll, I remember two things. The clay colored soil, and the clear terquoise waters. The saying of Justice is "What goes around comes around". Realm eight was seen as pergotory and as a long red tunnel. The Federation is predicted to rule all of this sector of the universe by the year 2061 or soon after. Ted Neugent was seen as the ideal sexual object and the highest form of sex was that of a man making love to a man who looks like a woman. As a concession to me, he made this a manifestation of Hell. The ZAC star features the internal pentagram, which depicts the orbit of Venus tracing out a pentagram pattern in the heavens, and also the chinese progression pentagram with its element transmuting. The outer star is three equilatteral triangles making 14 points in all. This is realm 14, the Lake of Fire. Jim Cooper regarded the six and one domino as standing for 61, which a lucky number, whereas sixteen is regarded as a bad number. The Magition stands for metamorphisus. Nineteen is the number of races that sere "seeded" in the galaxy on a Startrek episode. Captain Piccard could be seen as a Hermit in wanting to get alone and search out his origens. The Sun in Morrison's scheme stands for vacation and relaxation. 21 alludes to the time it takes a chicken egg to hatch and is sort of a rebirth number. The Devil is seen here as openness and lack of all pretence once the walls are torn down. The scene here is one of a flat plane with some remaining rubble.

Getting Everything That's Coming to You

Today's most popular economic crap shoot is in the housing business. Investors hope to make a quick few hundred thousand "rolling over" a home that's gone up fifty percent in value in a few short years. They figure even if they can't really afford it, all those worries are off in the future and with today's juicy sub prime real estate loans, they can have gratification right now. Some of these investors trade houses the way kids trade baseball cards. You only have a small monthly payment untill rates get hiked down the road. It sounds almost too good to be true. And sadly for a lot of people it isn't true. They may even be middle class home owners but they too get sucked into the trap and then one of them loses their job. Then they discover that sadly their house and its equity doesn't amount to near as much as they thought it did. Once people start going bust there is a flood of homes on the market. That's great for the "bottom dwellers" picking up a home cheap at a reposession sale. But with the flood of homes on the market prices drop further and pretty soon you've got a negative spiral going. This is what's got the stock market so jitterey right now and why we said to sell at the beginning of August. The market dropped 387 points yesterday and it was down a hundred points more today when apparently the Federal Reserve stepped in and pumped money into the economy. But now Hillary Clinton wants to bail out all the investors who took part in these cheap loans, letting them off the hook. In my book this is a really bad idea. Part of our problem is that we don't believe, as Rush Limbaugh says, that Actions Have Consequences. People must live with the consequences of their act to keep society in karmic ballance. In China they talk about this a lot. That is, the idea of things such as good and evil being in their proper place and the fung chue being in proper ballance. Good acts should translate to rewards and bad acts should translate to punishment. People need to face the consequences of their economic quick money crap shoots. Investors should not come to expect the magic hand of government bailing them out, the way Hillary Clinton wants to do. After all, what does that make government is not a partaker in their folly. It will only compound the problem further down the line the way misappropiation of funds in the Iraq War by the Bush adminestration is a consequence that needs to be faced. I repeat that if our economic woes are not faced now they will only compound and get worse later. I agree with many things Larry Elder was talking about the other day when he was on one of his "Victocrats" rants. Black and other raced women are not married to their husbands, they're married to the State. The State is their "big daddy". I don't know if Larry Elder's statistics on black illigitamate births are correct or not. I pray to God he is wrong. But however many there are, if more people had respect for the sanctity of marriage we'd have a lot fewer economic problems for government to work with. The same goes for doctors. It used to be that being a doctor meant you were in a giving, caring profession. People had a relation of trust with their doctor and the patients believed what he told them. Now you have all the insurance companies gobbling up all the money and forcing doctors to make decisions about their patients they would not otherwise make. And many want the government to pay the bill while the drug companies make most of the profits. I'm glad to hear that pattents will be expiring on a lot of popular drugs in the next five years. Welfare and health care are two areas of expenditure the federal government has no business in. It disturbs me that one of our two political party's biggest goals is to increase the Welfare state by continuing to pour money down the twin rat holes of welfare and health care. What happened to the work ethic? If we had more of a work ethic we would not be trying to make a fast buck all the time and to somehow "cheat the system". Were this another century the people here along with myself would all have "make work" jobs during the day with overlords watching what we do. This would be to "build our character" that we would be doing things like perhaps installing new sprinkler pipes or paint the building, over and over again. Some would say, "Isn't a man entitled to his leisure?" Well, a lot of people retire at age fifty five and then continue to rake in money for the next 25 or 30 years. That's too much.

As you know I have reconfirmed my dedication to Christianity. I have officially rejoined myself to the family of God. You look around and even in Lex Luther's wedding last night, I bet it was a Christian wedding where they say "Till death do us part". Marriage is the great obcession of so many soap operas and movies. Even jerks like Gary call themselves a Christian and talk about reading their Bible. I never fault reading the Bible. A lot of things Marcus has said to me about true spirituality have made me stop and thing. Few people on the planet are athiests. It's lonely out there. All of the people who run this place are devout Christians, and I praise the Lord that given my dire economic straits I have a place to live. Sometimes it's possible to conduct a one man war with God and in the end you are the big loser because there isn't even an enemy, that is, except yourself. "Financing" that war can put an emotional strain on you. Dennis Prager has stated that true Forgiveness can come only after repentance. But if another person wrongs you it's their karmic problem and not yours. It isn't your problem unless you make it yours. Leave the other person to God and trust in him. But in order to trust him you first have to believe him and that's kind of been my problem. Many times Glen has tried to "fellowship" with me but there was a wall between us in our quest to Praise the Lord. Why not break down that wall so that both you and your spiritual brother can together fellowship in the Lord?

There's one more question from the audience we forgot to get to in the previous posting. Some of you who actually read my postings are saying "You say that you were suicidal at one point and you said you were doing a saga over four files of talking (or arguing) with God after apparently having tried to commit suicide. What was your problem?" That's simple. Do you remember that woman Marie who had the two young daughters? I think I talk about this in the "Straight Talk" posting in Cosmic Tides in May of 2006. Well, as I saw my relation slip away from Marie I became mad at myself even though probably it was my fault. I hated Christianity because she was a more devout Christian than I was and I resented that.

Even good people may not be as lilly pure as they think they are. Both Hezekiah and Josiah were referred to as "good Kings of Judah" in the Bible. Yet both had an achiles heel. In the case of Hezekiah he fell ill one day and the Lord told the King to get his affairs in order because he was going to die. Hezekiah prayed and moaned for it not to be his time to go and so the Lord let him live. In the course of time Hezekiah showed an enemy from Babylon all the glories of the Temple in Jerusalem, that is all the sacred and expensive solid gold vessles. Never let your enemy see your greatest strength. There is a certain power in secrets. Jim Cooper said that. In the case of King Josiah he was known as the leader of a national spiritual revival, and he was kind of the Ronald Reagan of his time. And yet this was in retrospect a revival with no depth and it didn't last long enough to save Isrial, just as in my book I said that the spiritual revival we were in in 1980 would probably not be enough to save us. So one day Josiah went into battle. This is a noble thing for a King to do after all. That's what Kings used to do in the old days. So he went out and he was mortally wounded by an arrow that was not meant for him. If I remember my scripture some guy on the enemy flank just fired an arrow at random and it hit the King and mortally wounded him. The King Josiah was taken by charriot from the front but it was too late and he died. As it is often said, "The Lord works in mysterious ways" (Selah)

Ten Questions From Our Viewers

The name of this blog I’m doing now is “The Soap Opera of Life”, which is a phrase Larry Lawsen used back in the summer of 1976 when he was our roommate. What I’d like to do is answer some questions from our viewers. We seem to be suffering from a wipe out in the ratings, which have really tanked if I read the figure right.

Question 1. “Why did you say after eleven years that you really are still a Christian and does this mean that you’re changing all your beliefs?”

Answer: No. I’m not changing any of my beliefs. The mind is a growing, learning thing. I merely didn’t want to cede the ground to my detractors or Jesus Christ on the radio or any Pastors as having better Holy credentials than I do, because they don’t. Jesus (or was it the blind man) was kicked out of the Jewish Synagogue because he claimed his healing and that wasn’t supposedly Kosher. There is no justification for my leaving Christianity because the moral failing was all those other people’s and not mine. Next Question.

Two: “Does your conversion or re-claiming Christianity as your own mean that you are going to vote Republican next year”.

Answer: Pretty much, yes. Hillary Clinton is increasing her already large lead among the Democratic candidates and I can’t countenance the idea of voting for her. If Mit Romney is the candidate I’ll vote for him. If some republican I don’t like is the candidate, I may vote Green or something.

Three: In your last posting you spoke of “The Traveler”. Who is he?

Answer: He’s actually a street bum who was a classmate of mine back in high school but he seemed a little wasted- - and would often flatter me and insult me in the same conversation.

Four: “You said that Bones your cat (in the last posting) was called “Your Cat” and not “Our Cat” by people at the Bosc house. If you were not living at the Bosc house yourself why didn’t you just take the cat to where you were living?”

Answer: That’s simple. By the time I was able to dissern that there was actually a problem and even “Pike” who had gotten the cat really didn’t care, the cat either “Ran Away” or else Ron took him and drove to some distant place with him, which he had spoken of doing.

Five: “You said that Delores or someone had an abortion but that it wasn’t your kid and so I’m asking you- - could it have been your kid and did you sleep with her around that time?”

Answer: I won’t sware that I didn’t because I’m not going to answer this question. To model my response after the play “Julius Ceasar”- - - It isn’t that I can’t answer, or that I dare not answer, I am simply NOT answering.

Six: I was under the impression that there was some mysterious link between Henry and your mother. Could you clarify this for me.

Answer: Yes. There is a diary that my grandfather’s parents kept in which there was this one child who was born and they all loved and he could do no wrong but they “lost” this child. We all assumed this meant the child died. Then my grandfather was born but they didn’t seem to care about him. Henry is the descendant of this brother of my grandfather we all thought had died at an early age. The relative we have in common is my great grandfather, Willis. Henry looks kind of Turkish of Lebanese or something, being dark complected with jet black hair.

Seven: “Are you like the Mormons? They supposedly believe in three heavens. Did the apostle Paul think there were three heavens?”

The answer to the second part is I don’t know what the apostle Paul thought about anything. As to your main question, we at the Federation believe in a Terrestrial realm, a Telestial realm, and a Celestial realm. Now the celestial realm of the realm of God himself and encompases all the knowledge and matter in the universe- - and in the fifth dimension all contingencies of things that could or might exist but don’t. In short if you mathematically table it out it all agragates to a big fat Zero. The “terriestrial realm” is otherwise known as “Realm Ten” in Mark Campbell’s cosmology, or two realms above realm twelve where we live, with the Sea of Green between them. This is believed to be the “earth plane” Sylvia Brown talks about of “earthbound spirits”. However I now believe that this realm is merely left over psychic energy from past lives with no consciousness. The “telestial realm” is the realm of Ideas, where Ideas have physical manifestation and reality. Socratese spoke of a higherarchy of four levels. There are Ideas at the top, and then abstract mathematical concepts and shapes, and then the realm we live in, and finally there are shadows and images. No scientist has ever successfully proved the existence of a Telestial Realm.

Eight: “What do you like to do in your spare time”

Answer: Listen to radio stations from other cities on computer, or else Music Match. I watch a lot of TV and news and talk shows, and do a lot of graphics software on computer. I enjoy research on the Internet, and I also play chess, but don’t like losing as much as I have lately. I’d like to get out more for recreation in the real world such as water slides, roller skating, bowling, and miniature golf, but I’m low on money.

Nine: “You once said that you were incarnated in the past as an associate of a World Leader. In fact you said he was the greatest world leader of all time in terms of land mass. Who is he?”

Answer: Ghengis Khan. (It was during a global warming cycle) Ghenghis Khan ruled the greatest land mass of any leader in history.

Ten: Is there some other date you call your birthday rather than December 31^st?” (answer) I’m more of a Pisces than a Capricorn, swimming in opposite directions. Yes there is. February 25^th. which is also George Harrison’s birthday. There is evidence in my baby book pointing to that date, and also “testimony” that my mother did not look very pregnant Christmas of the previous year, when she should have been.

- - - - -meanwhile, back in the jungle- -

George Bush held a news conference this morning in which he said that he wanted to cut the amount of taxes that corporations pay to make them more competitive on the world market. I noticed the conference after breakfast. We had waffles and they passed around seconds and I availed myself, and then bought a pack of cigarettes from Oscar and she showed me how much I owed, tallying it up. I paid $5.20 this time. Then I went out to the bakery for a large coffee. Bill was not here last night.

“Passions” is now doubt continuing with their “undoing the deed” saga. It was a Bewitched episode there this concept had its roots where a wood nymph (who don’t like witches and visa versa) announced a curse on Darren’s household because of a deed that was done during the Middle Ages. Scientology is a website everyone should look at. They talk about Clears, but I’m not sure whether they mean the same thing as what the Federation calls a karmic Clear. The Bible teaches “the curse without a cause does not come” and this is a concept we should all meditate on now.

Marcus just said he remembered the rules to “Conquest”. We’ll have to play.

Astrology, unlike psychic premonitions is not conditional on “whether you act on something or not.” Your chart is your chart. Your fate is set. I guessed the nature of the unfolding plot on Passions where Sheridan was concerned, and I was dead wrong.

THE DICE OF THE GODS ARE LOADED

AND KARMA IS THE WEIGHT

Undoing The Deed

It is said that “undoing the deed” is “one of the most dangerous practices of witchcraft”. It involves travel in the fifth dimension. Yet Jesus said that if you have the faith of a mustard seed then All Things Are Possible. I would at this time like to speculate what if I hadn’t committed the Deed of June 20^th. 1996. That appears to be the date. On this date in history I renounced Christianity. But suppose Sylvia Brown or someone appeared to me in my apartment to give me a little heads up warning. And she sought to bean eleven years of history into my brain from the renouncing of Christianity on that date through to Barry Bonds hitting his 756^th. home run in San Francisco. In those days I didn’t know what an I Pod was. If you asked me “What’s an I Pod” I might have said, “one of these little ships for one they have on Star Trek”. I would have had to guess what an MP3 player was. If you asked me what a cyber or internet predator was I would have responded, “I guess it’s some kind of new virus” If you asked me about a Google search on computer and asked me what it was I would have said, “I guess it’s a search for the world’s biggest number”. If you told me “Microsoft no longer supports Windows 98” I would have responded, “How can they? That isn’t for another two years”. If you talked about buying DVD’s I’d assume you were talking about jockey shorts. If you asked “What does it mean to be down with something”, I might have eventually come up with the right answer but it might take me a couple minutes of guessing. Of course once Sylvia Browne zapped the information into my brain I’d go into some kind of a trance like Captain Piccard in that episode about Piccard living his whole life on some forgotten planet and an alien civilization. Sylvia Brown would have to enter my brain as another thought to bring me out of it. And then slowly but surely it would dawn on me that I had only imagined those eleven years from June 1996 through August of 2007. And finally I’d carry on with life, wiser and forewarned.

Sylvia Brown would ask me to renounce my renouncing of Christianity. I would like to do that now on this August 8, 2007. I made a mistake and a bad one and showed a bad misjudgment of cosmic reality by renouncing Christianity that day. As Sylvia Brown would tell me I was formerly under a life-long Sutteran spell. This is a group I was already fermiliar from Star Trek. “They are in the Cassiopian star system”. “Oh, the Cassiopian federation?” “No, not Federation, they call themselves a System. You have the Romulan Empire, the Reigellian Federation, the Andromeda Federation, but you have the Alcyonne star System. Christianity was protecting me from Evil and to suppose that it wasn’t was extremely misguided. I renounce my ill-founded conclusional statement of that day that set my life going in an adverse manner. Sylvia continued. I know you’re thinking of that analogy of your friend, Mark Campbell said about the boat being the Church, but you seem to have forgotten that Mark said that at death we all stop being fishes and turn into men on the dry land. Remember that? The shore in his analogy was death. The trouble is, just as Dan Quayle was no Jack Kennedy, you were never a fish to begin with and the water is not your home”. Suddenly in Marcus’s mind the Queen saying “Don’t you know that you’ll be Dead before they let you” came to mind. Marcus said to Sylvia, “Less than a month before Richi Vallance underwent some sort of cosmic death on July 8^th. 1975 he recorded “The Seeker” by The Who. It was a slower, less interesting version. I like The Who’s version much better. Can you tell me anything about that?” Sylvia: “No, you’ll have to speak to your Guides about that”. “But who are my guides?” “You’ll have to speak to your guides about that, too”. “But aren’t I right about just about everything else I’ve said about Christianity? I know I was wrong that day and never should have attacked Pete Richards like that the way I did, but- - “ Sylvia Browne: “Everybody else on the Planet except you realizes that God is a good force and his intentions twords us are nothing but of good and compassion. You on the other hand have been at war with God for seemingly decades. This isn’t right. You need to repent of your whole mind set”. “I see- - “ Marcus said. “I know I wrote all that stuff about God in the spring of this year (1996) and at the time I thought if I would undo the past five years I’d be doing fine.” Sylvia Browne “You can’t undo the past. But now you’ve seen eleven years into the future and you have that rare opportunity few people have been afforded to mend your ways before dire consequences manifest themselves”.

The Deed

This is June 20th. and according to one news report, summer begins sometime today. Someone else said "Saturday". And there is always the traditional time (tomorrow). I just got done reviewing the latest VCR tape. That had almost been done anyhow. Ready for labeling now, after nearly four weeks, I would say that is long overdue. "One reason why people don't bother with doing the right thing is be- cause, invariably, doing the right thing is harder, and your Son is finding this out now". Laura Sleshenger promo today. And 95% of the time she is right. On rare occasions and they are rare, doing the Right thing is act-ually a lot easyer when you are so cowed and bullied into the "Diefication of the Lie", which the Catholic Church,The Great Pervericator ,[Pastor Asshole], and a smattering of others- are guilty of. In this case- - doing the genuinely right thing can be amasingly un-burdening to one's soul. (Selah)

I have not ventured to say whether or not Comitting Suicide can be "unburdening" to one's soul. Look at all the child incest victums and the mothers who keep silent for motives I cannot begin to fathom.

I have not ventured outside the gates today. This is late morning and I am about ready to at this point. On this June 20th.

Last night I had another of these phone conversations with [Pete Richards] that was shall we say less than satisfying. He says his vacation was moved up so that "I" have less time to plan a recreational outing. The question is why he did not use the word "we". It's kind of like Bones the cat in late l984. Suddenly it became "my" cat rather than "our" cat. Like [Pete Richards], if left to his own devices would not want to go to any amusement park at all. This is the implication. Kind of like it is a "sacrifice". It's kind of a mind game. He offers to me to spend a day together- it was not my idea, and then now lays this "time is running out" routine. Then after saying that Wednesday was the only available day, Judy his protective wife, anounces that since they have marital counseling meetings Wednesday nights, would be unsuitable for Amusement Park outings. And Thursday he has plans and Friday

he is "cleaning the house" anounced as if Carved In Stone. Increasingly, I am beginning to feel like that basketball comertial with the five hundred foot court and "from then on- - Scoring was a snap- - - untill they instal- ed the movable baskets." Only this case, it seems as if [Pete Richards] is saying- - "better take a shot before the basket starts moving even faster". I think there are two days that are still "available". Untill he comes up with his next "revision". You may say "[Marcus], you should be honored because he is giving you the power to plan the day". I might harken you back to Newyears Eve l994. The one before l995 for you people in Rio Linda. This was the year I was offered to do "anything I wanted" yet we managed to eat where [Pete Richards] wanted and I was about cut out of the "conversation" entirely. Not to men-tion that I was sick and given a true choice would not have gone at all. Like Newyears of l987 I remember i was grateful to [Henry][at the Bosc house] that night for fix- ing a nice dinner- - potroast with vegetables, as I recall. I remember feel- like I just wanted to "mellow out" for the evening, but felt this Pressure NOT to do that. Of eight birthdays between 1980 and 1987 [in the BOSC house era], not a one of those eight was I home at midnight. So we went out to [Jim Cooper]'s. And I remember there was a fire in the fireplace that "stank" had this grotesque odor. The room was otherwise rather dimly lit. (this recalls a previous negative event) I was coming down with a cold this night. And by midnight [it had me in its] power sneasing and running for tishues, would have gone home. But instead later around l:30 I dare day, I had birthday cake shoved down my throat. Sweets were the last thing I needed. This is not a new story but I believe it makes the point.

Rush Limbaugh is almost defending Bill Clinton in saying that- - - "I know what I said before but- - " because he is among the five percent of those "Rich" who have gotten richer in the past few years. And back in the days of the Reagen adminestration, it is now admitted the rich were not get- ting rich at as fast a rate as they are now, believe it or not. And so the logical inference is that the tax hike did not HURT the Rich. In spite of the hike, these people are prospering more than ever, it seems. It would be almost to invite a seccond tax increase for the rich. Rush did a "[Pete Richards]". Rather than say "I screwed up; I was completely wrong what would happen" he comes up with this mianderingly conveluted spiel.

This is not the first time. Back in l992 or so Rush made this bet that by the start of l995, the economy would be in the toilet and inflation would be up and unemployment up and Clinton falling in the polls. And he was so persistent in this "proposed Bet with the Democrats" I wrote letters on his bahalf to various people goading they they were Cowards if they did not take Rush up on his challenge. But we know now Rush washed out almost completely. For a man who prides himself on his "ninty eight percent acc- urecy" and who claims to "highlight his errors because they are so rare" we have not heard Boo from him on this subject. No sirree!

One topic I don't believe I have ever brought up on computer (and you are free to do a directories wide word search in this DOS format) and that is Mothers Day l994. First of all, to generalize, one might say that my self-esteem went down more sharply from early May l993 to late May l994 than about any other time imaginable. Talk about record drops. The gradient here is staggering. But Mothers Day l994 was when we were at Red Robin and I made that remark about "God being the one responsable for all the stuff that has occurred in my life". It was one line but it started a reaction akin to anouncement of a major forest fire. The fire bragade formed and lines like "Oh- [Marcus] is off his nut, what shall we do" ect. The insan- ity of this day has not diminished with time and I relate the detales on tape. Just a few remarks here. This is where [the Great Pervericator] related certain "senta-ments" of Pastor [-] [Pastor Asshole] about me, that he had never expressed to me directly, and one wonders how such detale could have been either conveyed or even remembered from, supposidly, just one phone conversation between them some two years before. This is the same gathering where I tried to find out what [Pete Richards] and Judy still even believed about Christianity. As you know at the resturant they had - - all of them- - been going out of their way to trash [Mike Bowman] and his theology. Implying that it was somehow contrary to leading a "reality based" life. At the time Pastor Mike and I were on better terms than we are now. It's almost as if they were trying to annoy me. Later on, at the house, I wanted to, like I say, find out what they believed and when we "compared notes" [Pete Richards] said everything I had been "taught" when I first got "saved" (these two words are in quotes in that both have somewhat altared definitions from normal speech) was now obsolete and "a thing of the past", like that parody interview with Ronald Reagen and Walter Cronkite. But instead of admitting perhaps some of my "doubts" of the era (this word, too, in Bovine theology has a somewhat altered meaning) were, shall we say, more well founded than some would think, but rather than admit this and say "[Marcus], I was screwed up and I screwed you up" instead makes it MY fault for not on my own realizing that- as Judy so aptly put it "Well- - that was then and this is now" what a brilliant mind. Judy made remarks such as "You are walling yourself away from those people like theropists who can help you by saying it's impossable" and this is when I heard all this stuff about "What Pastor [Pastor Asshole] really thinks about you, but was afraid to say to your face". I get the feeling sometime that conversations are almost "pre-scripted" in advance. Like last night I ran into "The Traveler" as the ZAC coins the term. I am accused of just about everything including raping the President's daughter, and when I try and defend myself with the facts, and greeted with - - this whole routine I dont know what you call it "[Marcus]- - why resort to using Facts, I mean if you were really a cool dude like youre supposed to be you would not be such a snivveling - - - (something) to resort to Facts!"

We are going to make it under the noon wire. This final observation is pretty rudimentry but I'll mention it. If you have a pebble in your tennis shoe and are running the 40 metre marithon, what do you do? If you have any sense the solution is ovious. You stop for a moment and take the offending rock out of your shoe and continue. Once you have done this you no longer continue to feel the jabbing disconfort but are free to go on your way like it never occurred. In the same way if you have some religious question about Christianity or what have you then if you face your doubt and get the matter resolved you can go on your way and the issue is from then on forever a dead one. It need never be brought up again, for the mat ter has been resolved. But if the question is not answered it will be as a pebble in that tennis shoe while you are endeavoring to run the marithon. And it will continue to be an impediment to you and slow you down, as the pain continues to grow, and believe me it does, your speed will continue to "attenuate". (Slow Down, for you people in Rio Linda, California) Because the rock rubs a spot that continues to get sorer and sorer so that virtually every step of your foot, in time, causes excrutiating pain. And so if you in time decide to abandon the Faith, it is kind of like "getting off of the boat" you have been rowing on. People like [-] [Pastor Asshole] are going around drilling holes in the bottom of your boat, and you are desperately trying to plug those leaks and BH is just getting his rocks off observing your frensiac "remedial" activities. The saying bears repeating that all of the crap I took from Christians, and particularly [Pastor Asshole], I took out of love for God, or what I thought in my mind was God. If you have doubts about the reserection or origional sin, these are not minor ones. Chuck Swendoll made the statement that today in seminary 54% of the students doubt the reserection of Jesus of Nazereth, and the figures get worse for other doc- trines such as transubstantiation, the seccond coming & the after life. And I say again that once any important question is Resolved, it never need be brought up again. And this is true in personal relations. Your "love for the other" makes you want to strive for a "successful resolution of the re- lationship, so important to you. But if you were not persuing a Faith and a persuit of God, then all of this would be pointless. After you have the courage (despite David Korish' threats of eternal damnation) step off of the boad and on to the more solid pier, then you can relax and watch the others in the boat in their hateful spite attacking one another and endangering one another there in the water, in the sinking boat. You can have pitty on them and even share a curiousity of certain religions Questions, but now, lunike before, you are not deiven to have said Questions answered. And you are no longer to suckle at the shit infested teat of [-] [Pastor Asshole], or what- ever animalistic Bitch figure he would assume in this analogy. The whole thing is- - - I, [Marcus], have "stepped off the boat".

Epilogue

Things started to unwravle slowly at first, and then more rapidly. Dianne and Zack announced they were moving out of the apartment complex on July first. Who’s to say whether they had ANY intension of moving out on June 20^th. The next thing is that Rush Limbaugh quit his TV program and seemed to give up entirely on the idea of Bob Dole becoming president. If Dole had served two terms he would still be alive and kicking when 2005 rolled around. I did my last snail mail letter in September of 1996, which is something I’d been doing for 21 years. I developed that tendenitus or something that made my tendins feel like they were shrinking and I had great pain in my left arm and neck and shoulder and back. Of course Bill Clinton was re elected president. People said once the election was over Ken Starr would really crank up the heat and tighten the vise investigating him. This turned out not to happen. I began getting all that “Doctor stuff” in the mail. There were two major gatherings I was invited to almost accidently and I showed up to both without a gift and felt very out of place. That whole hail-bop comet thing and the Applewhite cult suicide occurred. Ken, my neighbor for nine years suddenly died of a heart attack. I noticed I had a serious drinking problem and my first “attempt to stop” was in late July early August of 1997. A new female neighbor moved in and at that exact moment I developed shingles. In the early fall of 1997 I seemed to develop one illness after another. On Halloween I was diagnosed with high blood pressure and this became a lingering problem. In early 1999 I was diagnosed as an alcoholic and my brother was sucked into the affairs of my life. Parents stopped holding holiday gathering dinners at their house after 1999. I went to that Fullerton Mental Health Clinic for alcaholisum, and found out I also had Hepatitus B. I got put on zyprexa late in 1999 and it slowed my metabalism and my creativity, and caused me to gain weight. I got that Therapist, Eileen in the middle months of 2000 and saw her at least sixteen times. She in a way reminds me of Sylvia Browne except she’s even more morbidly obeist and she doesn’t have red hair. Things could only go down hill from there- - and I developed digestive problems and problems with my nerves- - - and eventually I ended up here.

The Roll Over & Play-dead Congress

Well today in the ongoing soap opera of life, Luis got exicuted through lethal injection. Nobody was inclined to come forward with exculpitory evidence on this one. Sheridan gave Teresa the electric chair after she figured out what levers to push. Later Gwen came along and touched Teresa and she fell stunned or dead to the floor. I guess three people dead is enough for one episode. What's congresses excuse? This congress passed a few minor ethics bills that will be ignored and circumvented, and a needed minimum wage hike. But on the big issues of our day they have surely dropped the ball. Both Thom Hartman and Randi Rhodes were talking about how this Congress gave bush everything he wanted on this government surveilance bill. She points out that this government phone tapping bill the republicans rammed through Congress at the last minute- - was not talked about on the Sunday shows. 41 democrats voted for it in the house and 14 democrats voted for it in the Senate. This phone tapping bill held congress to all hours of the night. They are only required to consult with FISA untill 120 days later. Thom Hartman likens this whole Bush surveilance stuff to a man being arrested for drunk driving and rather than prepare his defence just changes the law to have drunk driving legal. The attorney general Alberto Gosolez is the only one who has to give permission for this new phone surveilance which could be two people from European countries talking to each other but the calls are ran through New York. Also in the bill was absolution from all lawsuits people might file against any corporation like the phone company giving out private information. Also unlike the Presidents edict of several years ago, terrorism need not be suspected. Now the government can spy on you just for the hell of it. You people may think some of my recent blogs are a little dark hued, well the outlook for our nation is dark. You just know that some "incident" is going to occur to silence any democratic candidate with the courage to talk about how the constitutional rights of citizens are being whittled away. Nobody can forsee Al Qaida striking America again but if it happens you know the Republicans will be going "You see? That's why we shouldn't elect democrats next year". The Republicans, all nine or ten of them, didn't talk at all about this bill on Sunday in a ninety minute debate on ABC I watched. Ron Paul was the only candidate who was both against the Iraq War and also against all this governmental secrecy.

Rudolph Giuliani won the personality contest of the Republican candidates. He showed the most whit and carisma. I liked the position of several of the candidates on issues such as abortion. You know people are getting smarter. They don't let their kids have a computer in their bedroom. As Montell Williams puts it "As you get older brain cells in your head get morphed and you don't remember what it was like to be a teenager- - and even some of the older teens say they'll be tougher on their own children than their parents were on them. This is certainly the case with Lisa Marie Preslie. She was a spoiled, self indulgent whore, and yet I get the idea she's raising her own daughter in a guilded cage, screen all her boyfriends. I say all this because it shows at least people think of their kids when it comes to morals. And yet abortion laws still see kids as these sluts they were twenty-five years ago. If I were a parent I'd be a little pissed that the government was not backing up my own rules for my kid's conduct with the opposite sex. Sometimes the opposit phenominum occurs. The older kid has a really tough time of it with his parents' rules and the younger siblings get away with murder. But the thing we have to remember is that though all parents have varying standards, few would regard murder as a civil right- - meaning abortion. I'm against abortions of both the physical and the spiritual kind. I know one church pastor who seems to enjoy "performing abortions" - spiritual abortions. Of course Christians are also guilty of guilt projection, one of the oldest psychological vices in the book. They think they can cure their OWN burried feelings of guilt by making someone else feel guilty. I remember clearly what was like being a teenager. I didn't have any of my brain calls morphed. I guess some would say that if this is so I must suffer from "arrested development".

Ton Delay is guilty of insider traiding- - - and intra-day trading and giving inside information on stocks to his buddies. He wasn't even charged with this but with money laundering. Apparently the insider traider stuff was legal in Texas. I thought inside trading was illegal everywhere. Larry Elder once said he didn't think trading with inside information should be a crime. I think it's a question of degree, like steroids. If you just "happened to learn something" if it's false you're screwed and can't sue the person who lied to you. If it turns out to be true, then you're guilty of a crime- - conspiracy to defraud and a whole lot of stuff. When it comes to steroids I don't think it's cheating if "everybody does it" and it's generally expected. At one time people used to shoot rabbits in their back yard. At one time "everybody" used to smoke. Back in the thirties "everybody" was joining the Communists and going out to fight Franco in the Spanish civil war. Later as the times changed and Joe Mc Carthy arose on the scene these same people were in big trouble. Now the people who took or were roomered to have taken steroids are in big trouble. But this steroids saga was raised to opperatic heights today on the Larry Elder show. He spent the whole hour lambasting Barry Bonds for breaking Hank Arron's home run record. Poor Hank Arron. He's just going to sulk and not be a good sport about it and congradulate Barry. Larry then read something about Black athletes being full of themselves but the time comes when they see reality and they realize sadly that "They're just another nigger". I'm not sure what that quote was supposed to prove but you know Larry enjoyed saying it. Race baiting is his favorite past time. I'm sure even us Dodger fans wish Barry Bonds all the best. Let's not turn him into O J Simpson, like Larry Elder wanted to do today. Barry Bonds isn't taking steroids now, so all you detractors can just shut up.

A week or so ago I downloaded 41 pages of material from the Michael Moore website for Ferenheit 911. It's interesting material I couldn't read all of at one sitting. All Americans should read these pages to remind ourselves why we have such contempt for President Bush. The leading Democrats both spoke at a liberal dominated Bloggers convention over the weekend. My guess is what when Hillary saw O Bama doing it she had to do her "Me, too" thing, not wanting to be left out of a good thing. My only advice to the bloggers is to keep going the way you are and if anything, step up the pressure on government.

Thom Hartman has suggested that the way to rebuild our infra structure is to raise income taxes back up to seventy percent where they were from the days of Kennedy right through to the early 'eighties. Then they were cut to fifty under Reagan and then 28%. Even if they were hiked back up to fifty we could raise a lot of money. We could reinvigerate our space program, have environmental and polution measures, such as alternative energy production and increasing car milage, and rebuild all of our bridges and levys so that no more of them collapse. Besides this we should build bullet trains like they have in Japan that travel over two hundred miles per hour. This would reduce congestion at our airports and probably save a lot of business travelers valuable time. I imagine they won't institute the same securety measures in train stations that they have at airports, at least right away. I would imagine that trains use a lot less fuel than Boeing 767's. Another bi-product of high income taxes is that it might keep C E O salaries down from their current astronomical figures. After all, if they get paid more it will only go to the government. That's part of government's job to provide incentives for positive behavior. And remember, the National deficit is a whole lot higher than they are telling us.

P S I predict Teresa really is dead. Do you know how I can be so sure? Because the guilty are never caught on that show like they aren't in the Catholic church. If Teresa were still alive she would be able to directly finger the person who did her in, and we can't have that.

Fabricated Information and Trick Photography

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This is August 4, 2007 and Becky’s birthday. On her nineteenth birthday I drew a picture of a bunch of girls in shorts sitting on benches and the sign on the wall said “G A A Meeting” and I was the speaker and I said, “In a way I’m jealous of all you, who aren’t boys, and therefore ellagable to go out with Becky”. It was a take off of a line Robert Kennedy used against LBJ in 1964 when he wanted to be picked as vice president. Of course this line “I don’t go out on dates” is something Christians routinely say that isn’t true. When I first met Becky she was in the process of breaking up with Bo. And after they’d broken up Becky told me that a lot of times she’d fake like they were still together. Of course eight months later Becky would be married to that convict prisoner she met, “with hair down to his waist”. Of course she’s a Leo. You gotta watch out for those Leos. Leo women have that aura about them men can’t resist. Laura is also a Leo and her birthday is in twelve days, so Thom Hartman can start the countdown. “288 hours, 56 minutes, 26 seconds” or something. I’m using this paragraph in a blog, and thought about the previous paragraph, also written today, but I thought about it a bit. You know there is a scene in The Ten Commandments where Nefritiri grabs Ramses in a passionate embrace” and he throws her back in doubt, and she says to him, “Do you think this is a sample of what you’ll have when you marry me? No. This is a sample of what you will NOT have”. Back in the spring of 1996 I did a story stretched out over at least four files through the spring, of dialogs between myself and God. In these God is taunting me with visions of what I Could have had had I not committed suicide on May 3^rd. 1972. Because after all everything since them I thought was Real turned out not to be, apparently. So I’m taunted with scenes like “Me and Becky going at it like rabbits”, something whicn never happened. According to Jesus Christ of KFI, taunting must be God’s favorite past time for people in Hell. It’s been my belief that if some Force is screwing up your life Here, then to be REMOVED from such a force in the future would be “a consummation devoutly to be wished”. But apparently for Jesus Christ, Hell must be one of God’s favorite place for spending his recreational time. Like the man in the Sun outfit, who must have overslept because it was dark out at 5:20, God apparently finds more interesting things to do than what he’s supposed to be doing, like making television commercials. Of course in the news they’re still talking about the destruction of that confounded bridge. Ron Hubbard is doing an investigation. If the bridge to the O T realm that Ron crossed in 1967 is not restored nobody can go up in the rapture. Of course Mark Campbell and the Federation tell me that on November 30^th. 1967 there was a rapture of spirits on planet earth, and this is one of the reasons why the psychedelic movement in music peaked at this time. We’re slowly in the process of getting to our main topic - - but we’re like Beethoven’s Nineth. We take our time about getting to the point.

Last night there was this intriguing movie on FOX. It was about this woman who’s son was feared dead in a plane crash “fourteen months ago” but only now was she being told by all these people around her that she was delusional and ther her son never existed but that she miscarried at birth. She knows of all these photos of her son but they’re all missing or altered. If course I’m in that computer class where one of the things they do is make people disappear from photographs and the computer fills in the hole with surrounding area. She hurries to the library to look up old newspapers on micro film about the plane crash but they’ve all been deleted. Finally she goes to this one Hockey player for the NY Rangers house. She tries to tell him he had a daughter that was also on that plane. He denies it. But then she realizes he’s a heavy drinker and asks him why and says “You started drinking about fourteen months ago didn’t you”. That got his attention. Her son’s name was Sam and his daughter’s name was Lauren, and they were both about nine I guess. And she tells him, “Say her name”. She discovers that a bedroom has been wallpaper over and she rips off the wallpaper and there are these drawings that her daughter did on the walls. Little by little he becomes a believer and an ally. There is this one black woman police investigator who believes them. She realizes that if she WERE insane, who are all these Federal investigators chasing them? And how come this one guy who blocked their exit in a car, came back to life even after being run over? Some may say this is tin foil het and black hillocopter time. But I too have thought about this in passing. My biggest fear is that I will die and that nobody will remember that I was ever here or even existed. There are times when I suspect family members of this. As you know right around the time of the wedding in 1981 a number of people disappeared from my life never to be heard from again. Since we’re going to blog this I’ll use their ZAC names. There was Jim Klein, whose last appearance was at Pete Richards wedding. There were Dick and Robin Llyle and Zachery. Contrary to what I’ve said in snail mail the last time I saw them was before the wedding in 1981 and not early 1984. It was Mark Campbell who continued to see them and give reports, but for some reason I never did. The last time Mark saw them was several times around Newyears 1983-1984. That evening I was at the gathering at Ron’s mother’s house. Of course Vicky, alias “tiger lady” and Jeane Hayse were never heard from again after December 1981. Pete (not Richards) told me years later that Jeane Hayse was murdered. Vicky got the name “tiger lady” from Zachery, because she wore this leopard bathing suit. Memory plays funny tricks. I was actually depressed in early 1982 because I felt that my life was “changed” and I longed for “the good old days”. Of course there were lots of younger girls around then but it didn’t do me any good, did it?

Now we’re ready for our main topic, to cue “Ode to Joy”. Or would some of you prefer the fourth movement of the Hammerklavier? It has always been believed from the days “Darvey” or whoever came up with the rapture doctrine, that the Rapture was something that was organized by God as a way of getting all of the Christians safely out of the world before it went to Hell in a hand backet in “the last days” also known as “the great tribulation”. You know, the Maharishi has said that if even a small percentage of the people meditate and achieve enlightened clarity of mind that this will cause a revolution of enlightenment in any nation where this occurs in. What if the government actually, as people darkly suspect on the Art Belle show, that the government actually has space alien technology. That U F O aliens did land on earth at some time in the past. I don’t know what’s in “area 51”. Probably nothing, but you never know. Suppose these space aliens had some technology the government found out about. Perhaps it was some device to make people forget others ever existed like that mental vaccume thing on Startrek where messages can be spoken directly into the unconscious mind. Obviously something “went wrong” because the space aliens admitted that normally THEY use it on the people they come across. But now the government has the equipment. Of course there is another Startrek episode where that 22^nd. century guy from Jersey gets ahold of this ship from the Future. You might say “Wait a minute. Space aliens wouldn’t allow a mistake like that. If the government were holding them hostage the others would come after them and rescue them”. Maybe not. Or maybe this civilization WANTED our government to have this “forgetting” technology, to use at a later date. Perhaps it’s taken fifty years for the government to decide what to do with this technology. Perhaps this is what Jimmy Carter meant when he said he believed in the existence of space aliens. I can tell you that civilization is not the Federation, or Alcyonne, or Andromeda or just about any other civilization we’ve talked about. There are the Sutterans. Apparently “Sutterans” means “south bound” in their own culture but among the Romulans the word kind of translates as “Dirty Dancing”. These people play dirty. (See Rocca-Rolla, early postings) These people may want to wipe all memory of enlightened ones from the planet. The government has ways of making you “Disappear”. You’ve all heard that. But what if the government LITERALLY had the power to make you Disappear. There is no trace of your molecules and all memory of you, like that computer play, was wiped out. As you know a lot of the evidence in the Kennedy Assasenation centers around badly executed trick photography. Suppose it isn’t “The Lord” but The Government that wants to get rid of all Enlightened people that could see through their tricks on the people to gain Unconstitutional power. The government may know as long as a certain contingency of the population exists, what happened in Nazi Germany with the abrogation of powers in the legislature, will never happen here, either slowly or quickly. (It’s already happening)

So what happens to those who “never existed”. Well perhaps as the movie intones “They’re still alive”, just like all those “murder victims” were on Days of our Lives three years ago. They’re all in a “place”. Suppose you do have a Soul and it does survive consciousness after death? Perhaps your “Soul” is made out of some kind of sub-atomic particles that this world cannot destroy. (Now I’m sounding like a Christian) Suppose there is a set day when our Government will set into operation, “Operation Elimination”. It could be something like the tenth day of the tenth month. October 10^th. 2010 or that ten ten ten code. (see previous postings) I’d like to close with this. Sometimes there are secret messages. At Renes Le Chateau there were secret messages. There are paintings where if you peal off the front layer there is another photograph hidden beneathe with secret messages and things like I Tego Arcena Dei. When I was three going on four there were movies of me at Beverly Park, a kiddy amusement park, with my brother. The last thing you see before “The End” is us riding a roller coaster. As you know in the song “Come Together” there is a line about “He roller coaster, he got early warning”. Then there is a scene taken from the hill behind our house looking down. The scene is of my mother and brother planting or burying something in the back yard, and they both appeared over-dressed for the part. The next thing you see if that Christmas and my brother is getting gifts. My name is mentioned in the title but there is no Me to be seen in the following scene. I have done a disappearing act.

(Come Together – All Together)